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to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
my trust in my HP comes from alot of things... first off each and every mornin i sit up and give thanks for being here at all for a nother day and i read from my daily reminders., that in itself helps me to place my mindset in a positive place. and i say the serenity prayer after i read the entries that helps me re-gain re-affirm my self where i want to be on the inside i know my HP is with me every second and i also know that even when im upset with the way the day may be going... i can STOP and take some deeep breathes in CALM and out SMILE and that helps me to place my mindset again in the positive i feel HP its like when you smile.... and you hold that smile on your face and then you try a lil bit longer to keep it there something stirs on the inside., from deep down inside my self. my heart my being that.... is hp to me. and when i read and i get that feeling of calm that is my hp and when i watch the redbirds ., theyre all over the yard right now... and they cock their heads and give me a look., like thanks for the birdseed and the fresh water... that is hp to me lil signs of hope lil feelings i get when i know i am right with me it is one day at a time in our home living with active alcoholism but i also know each minute each second i have the choice "I" make the decision ... to step back breathe and let that moment pass me by the moment of anxiousnesss or even a moment of despair or sadness and i remember here all of you and the love i feel in this room and inthe places i visit for my face to face meetings. .there is alot of power in all of us that we pass on to each other a love and an *understanding that only WE as an Alanon family feel its HP to me. and by letting go and letting hp take the worries and the stress... by deep breathing and reminding myself i am a spiritual person in a physical body i am assured i am with my self in the right place within and that reflects to others.
its a gift; this program.
i am so grateful to be here to share with you and to receive your es&h. my strength comes from that and from sharing
deep breathe...lol.
please share some es&h on your experiences, strengths and hope about your self and your ideas / views of your HP (Higher Power/God).
thankyou for being here and reading my post!
-- Edited by aunitedway on Friday 1st of May 2009 11:06:38 AM
For me it is our creator. Taking one day at a time, not being anxious, not returning evil for evil and more are all from the Bible and truths we use in Alanon.
My life is totally in HP's hands. I let go and let God. Took me a while to learn how. Now my life is so much better.
I know everyones life is their own, their paths their own. Hp taught me unconditional love.
I am a Jehovah's Witness, so for me Hp is number one, and my life always reflects that unless I goof! (o:
One night when my first baby was tiny with colic and crying the night away I was sitting up with him rocking and so tired and so drained knowing husband needed to sleep and praying babies tummy would settle down so he could sleep ...I felt exhausted, alone, worn out and I prayed silently for strength to sit and rock him until he felt better...my silent prayers were heartfelt and steadfast...when I didn't think I would last one more moment and tears running down my face from being so tired too...suddenly a light appeared on my right shoulder and it was comforting and it filled me back up with hope and knowledge that I was not alone and that this too shall pass.
Another time my HP presented himself to me was a day maybe 30 years later and I was heartsick over the marriage and my life and having to go to a job I knew wasn't good for me, I prayed coming out the door as I walked to the bus stop at the end of the corner suddenly every thing seemed to be filled with color, the trees were brighter, the flowers more fragrant, the sounds of birds singing more pronounced and healing, I knew I was not alone and that I could make it one more day and that I was not alone, I had choices I could make and reminded this earthly drudgery would one day pass. I found courage.
My Higher power appears in a hug from my grandchildren. The touch of their hand or their genuine smiles. The uninhibited laughter from pleasures that are so simple and so pure as simple as a tiny worm crawling on a leaf or the kitty racing after a ball of yarn, the puppy chasing her tail. These are moments my HP shows himself to me.
Late at night when the world quiets long enough to rest lying in my husbands arms while we fall asleep. His caress reassuring me I am safe from any or all that would harm me. I'm comforted in knowing he was given to me from above and that for today nothing will invade my rest.
These are times my HP shows himself to me, this is the feeling I get when I am in the moment and giving praise to him who knows my plight and my deepest sorrows along with my simple needs. This to me is love which comes from above.
for me it is the creator of the universe and that personal part of my maker that resides within me...
i had HP problems for most of my life....trust issues...anger issues...."why did you let all this hell happen to me???".....anger....resentment....
it wasnt' till i got into the program and saw how "not alone" i was and i saw the love and support of the program/group/meetings/sponsors/recovery mates, et al that i realized that i had "Come home".....
then the HP thing just grew on me....as a christian i can honestly say that i am good friends of that part of the creator that resides within me....i feel the love...the caring...the guidence...the protection of my HP......i must work the 1st 3 steps each day to stay in "reachable" mode to my HP....but i know that my HP is there....all i gotta do is reach out...
its like owning a company (my life) i am the juniour partner...HP is the seniour partner....my job is very important...i make choices...decisions....i do a lot, however when i begin to feel overwhelmed/ anxious/ "over my head" i turn it over to the seniour partner.....works great......LOTS less stress.......peace, rosie
i see lots have read the post.. but not to many are leaving a reply... please dont be shy ( ive asked for your es&h) just a few words would be very nice.
i promise to take what i like and leave the rest...lol.
BIGHUG & aBIG ***"THANK YOU"*** to ((All)) that have taken time to read my post.
that in itself helps me to place my mindset in a positive place.
after i read the entries that helps me re-gain re-affirm my self where i want to be on the inside
its like when you smile.... 
and you hold that smile on your face and then you try a lil bit longer to keep it there 
from deep down inside my self. my heart my being
that is hp to me
and the love i feel in this room and inthe places i visit for my face to face meetings
. .there is alot of power in all of us
that we pass on to each other a love and an *understanding that only WE as an Alanon family feel
take the worries and the stress... by deep breathing and reminding myself i am a spiritual person in a physical body
and from sharing
**Thanks so much** to those that have replied. 
would be very nice. 
to take what i like and leave the rest...lol.