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I've had a good few days. I had an almost decent week. I had two really good days, felt shakey Wednesday mentally, had a F2F Wednesday night and felt a lot better TODAY however, I stepped outside the box.
I lost my job in February. I worked so hard to get that job. It was perfect for me. I lost it because my department was let go. In this economy, there would be no way I'd find another like it because what I do is sort of dying all together.
I've always had an interest in Real Estate investing. My AH and I bought a house 5 days before i found out about his affair. This was our first investment property. Now it's clouded with such heavy negative thoughts for me. We did everything wrong on it and are barely keeping it afloat. Finally got it rented.
I had an opportunity last month to go to a seminar on real estate investing. I met lots of people. It was hard for me. I haven't left the house in 4 months socially. I forgot what it was like to network.
I kept in touch with this one woman I met. She and I started conversing and they needed a bit of help. I went and interviewed with her and the other owner of the business and got a JOB!!! The pay is almost 1/2 of what I was making before but I'm chalking this up to learning about a field I'm interested in for FREE. I felt great. I've been sending out resumes left and right and NOTHING. The first job interview I got, I was given a job. I'm so excited. I have so much to learn and look forward to and it forces my introverted, SCARED self out into the real world.
I'm very excited and of course scared out of my mind, and then I thought...why am I scared??? If it's not for me, I can just leave. I don't want to because we need the $$ but I have options. It's great to have options.
Where was this determination and self confidence a few months ago?
My HP just gave me a little tickle on the head to let me know he's here and I have a lot to be thankful for. InPain
Congratulations InPain! You saw what you wanted and went out and got it! That shows great self-confidence and I'm glad you can see the growth in yourself! Your not only getting to learn about a field your interested in for free, your getting PAID for it! It may not be what you made at your other job, but like you said, in this economy it's good to just have a job.
So good luck with your new job you'll be learning the ropes and running along with the best of them soon!
That's fantastic ~ good for you. You seem like you have a good attitude & are excited to take this opportunity & run with it.
I used to wonder why I didnt do things yesterday or feel better then but everything unfolds & happnes for a reason. Today I am grateful for where I am & dont kick myself for arriving any sooner. When we're ready, receptive &/or the time is right (in hp's time) things happen for us.
When I saw your title, I was remembering how I got self confidence back -- it came through setting & following through with boundaries. I'm happy for you, that getting a working opportunity & getting out there was what you needed. Super, great! Network ur buns off! And hope you have fun doing it! Rock on.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Well Inpain Good For You... For Pushing yourself out that door... Sounds like it was just what you needed, and desired.. :) Maybe now you could change your name to "In Control, In Charge, In to living," :) Just a suggestion :) Might even lift your spirits even more:) I know it worked for me...
See My Name when I first came here was "MissingOut" and well, once I started working my program, I felt like I wasn't MISSING OUT No More :) And here came Jozie :) And Now I am in a much happier place, for I am not reminded daily that i am missing anything.. :)
It is wonderful to watch someone crawl thru their pain, and get what they are looking for, and not just give up. GOOD FOR YOU :) CONGRATS
((((Inpain))))) Good for you taking care of you and keeping your glass half full. It really is amazing how HP can guide us in the right direction if we just stay still long enough to listen:)
your friend in recovery shelly
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Nice work! I am glad that you have a NEW JOB and it will keep you very active because of all the cool stuff you will be learning. Thanks for posting and your future is looking brighter! J.
