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This is regarding my prior post about my son's relapse.
As I was sitting drinking my coffee on Sunday morning thinking about what it will take for my son to get into recovery, the word that came to mind was HONESTY.....complete honesty with himself and others.
Well...HP had something else in mind for me about complete honesty. I could not believe where He took me after that thought. It was withinn myself.
I had gastric bypass surgery in Oct. 2007. I am in total relapse. I have been binging and sneaking food and hiding it from everyone. I even had a full bottle of pain medication in my closet that I forgot about. When I found it I took some every night untilit was gone. I did not seek out any more but if it was available I know I would have continued. I now know that I could very easily get addicted to this type of medication. I will have to find the courage to tell a doctor if need be.
I opened up to my husband and 2 other people and now here to you guys. I plan on sharing this with my son at an appropriate time. I will no longer feel shame for this horrible disease but rather have so much compassion for anyone who suffers with it.
Good for you for looking at yourself, before trying to save your son from his additions... I am sure it is a tough reality to have, and I too have some polishing up to do myself... Thank you for coming and sharing your pain, and recovery here... I am most grateful to see that we are all growing the best way we can... Good luck with your "Honesty" Lord knows we all could use more of that... Inwards and Out...
You are a brave and couragious woman. I admire your streghth. Thanks for that post. It reminds me why I am here, so that I may learn from people like you. I always told my Tim that if I had his disease I'm not sure that I would have the strength and courage to recover. Any kind of addiction is horrible. We may not like what it does to our friends, family and to us, but that doesn't mean we can't have compassion for what they are going through. Thank your for that. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
-- Edited by Karilynn on Monday 27th of April 2009 07:27:18 AM
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It can be difficult to look at ourselves. I have a good friend who was addicted to pain meds, and the honestly of which you speak is what keeps her sober today. If she has a thought of using, or has the opportunity (like when she found where her husband hid his pain meds after sx), she calls and tells someone. She says once you think you have it beat and it is no longer a "problem", you are in trouble. Thanks for sharing.
Blessings, Lou
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Gailey, that was amazing awareness. Your relationship with your HP and your honesty reminds me that this is how recovery works.
I believe this awareness is important for YOU. It is fine to share it with people who truly care about you and whom you absolutely trust. Here is my suggestion....
DO NOT share it with anyone who may use is as ammunition against you someday!!! An addict or alcoholic is NOT the one to give this personal information to, as they are always looking to deflect problems from themselves and onto others.
My experience is, be careful of telling untrustworthy (and unnecessary) people where you tie your goat. They will come after it someday.
((((hugs))))
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