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Just for today, I am LETTING GO... I am letting go of all the crap I have been dealing with, I am letting the next step be that of someone else... I have realized that there are somethings that I can not control... I AM POWERLESS...
Examples are: I can not control my "Binge"Husband when he gets ticked at MY problems, I can not control my Neice/Nephew moving half way across the world "Or so it seems", I can not control the MVA, Or the Courts, I can not control what will happen next in the day I so gingerly call the NOW...
I can control... How I deal with it, How I look at It, and How I let it effect me! I can control my crazy thoughts that I have been letting take over my days, I can control my desire to want to do something for me, I can control answering my phone when I know the person on the other end is Stealing my Serenity, I can control how I get thru This MOMENT ONLY....
I got up this morning, I had a Headache from Hell, Not something I can control, but maybe for tomorrow I can prevent it by not going to bed so CRAZY within my own mind... Last night I started a new book, and it helped... Just taking my mind somewere else for while, just letting me find something of promise, in a world so crazy... I do Love this program, and the support of those that help me along the way... I know I have not been doing my part when it comes to sharing my ESH, for I have been so Wrapped up in my crap that I haven't took the time to notice that I AM NOT the ONLY One... So today... Just for this MOMENT... I am pushing myself to see things differantly, I am allowing myself to have a GOOD DAY...
I am Possitive, before the day is out, that someone...Some were will try and smash that, but I will not allow it, my reading this morning said that "I needed to be a friend to MYSELF" and for that I will at least try my best not to look down my nose at dispare, I will do my best not to have self pity, or my currant ordeal....
So for now I am doing the best I can, and I am GOING TO MAKE IT, I am Going to Get were I need to be, by Letting Go & Letting God... For today that is my only way to make it, One Day At A Time... Or Moment if that is what I need...
I still need all of you, I still need your ESH, I still need the support of all of those that have been here... And a push from all of you, will help me Keep My Faith In Myself, and in the HP as I Understand him....
Thanks for letting me Share :) Love & Prayers to All Jozie
Thank you for your inspiring post. That is what it is all about.
I needed the reminder that although I am powerless over what happens in this world, with alanon tools I can choose to RESPOND (not react) in a constructive manner.
Thank you so much for this post Jozie, I had just posted, and went back in to read some as I am in need of some ESH today and read this from you. Guess we are in about the same place.......
love ya lady~ hang in there and stay in the now with me........please!!!
shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
That's a great post, and a wonderful example of the old adage "fake it till you make it".... As in, we have to "force" ourselves into thinking this way early on, until these good habits become commonplace for us.... Pretty soon, you won't have that underlying feeling that "someone is gonna try to smash your serenity", cuz you'll be in a place where they will no longer have that power....
Great example of the program working.... and you working it.... Yay!
Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
