The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I found a powerful quote last week that has stayed with me ever since:
"Nothing can be more demoralizing than a clinging and abject dependence upon another human being. This often amounts in the demand for a degree of protection and love that no one could possibly satisfy. So our hope for protectors finally flee, and once more we are left alone - either to grow up or to disintegrate." Bill W.
As my marriage was ending last year, I couldn't believe that I would ever survive without him. I felt tremendous resistance to letting him go. It truly felt like I would disintegrate.
At the same time, I crawled through the doors of al-anon, and I made the choice to keep coming back.
Today, I am divorced, still without a man, and still standing!! Who would've thought?! I am in my 40's and I'm finally growing up! Last week, I got my taxes in on time... first time I ever did my own taxes!!
Today, I celebrate that I can do a lot of things that I had feared so much in the past. And I celebrate that I don't have to do it alone. I have a world-wide fellowship walking with me, every step of the way.
This quote helped to remind me, that I did not disintegrate. It is a miracle!
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The prayer isn't for Higher Power to change our lives, but rather to change us.
Great post Glad Lee, I so love what this program does! Its like finally finding water in the desert. I can really relate to what you wrote. I am also very happy and single and in my 40's and I did not disintegrate- in fact, I have grown and flourished beyond my wildest dreams. Hugs, J.
Glad lee, I like the term "disintegrate", as it is so perfectly descriptive. The times when I have felt my lowest, I have said and believed, "I can't do this anymore". Then, I start thinking what does that actually mean? Yep, disintegration, and no, I never have either.
I certainly have changed the past two years and credit this program for moving me along. I hang onto the hope that there really is a plan, and what is before me is greater than I can imagine. I'm presently working on going to Hawaii with a friend. A vacation just for me. Now, that is big!
Thanks for the post.
Blessings, Lou
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Every new day begins with new possibilities. It's up to us to fill it with the things that move us toward progress and peace. ~ Ronald Reagan~
Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
I realized last year, how very accustomed I was to experiencing fear & how often I allowed it to stop me from trying anything. Well, I realiazed/discovered anything we do that is brand new will always bring up a lil bit of fear for us, that's natural... something new triggers anxiety, then I can just do it anyway. Seeing it as a new experience instead of fixating on the fear itself, helped me move beyond it faster, easier.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
