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Good morning my family. Needless to say, it hasn't been a fun couple of days. I am still uncomfortable in my home. Even though there was no forced entry I am sleeping with a light on in the other room. I am double checking my locks, etc. I know this is normal after this. It's gonna take some time. But I feel violated. My trust in people is being tested. Once in a while I feel afraid.
I am trying hard not to have anger in my heart for whomever did this. I will not allow hatred to creep in. Hatred is why Columbine, Virginia Tech and my beloved Civic Association happened. I will not allow the person(s) who did this to do that to me. They have kicked me when I'm down. They have deprived my nieces of their heritage. But they have not taken my memories. I have seen the 2 suspects, and they can't even look me in the eye. That speaks volumes.
I am trying hard to stay positive and look for the good in things and humans. I can and am greatful that Pipers and I were not harmed. I still have a roof over my head, a job and food in my tummy. I have my family, friends, my Alanon family and my health. I am beyond thankful that I am not like them. To kick someone when they are down. To have so little respect for another human being - especially when they called me friend. A part of me pitys them. I am thankful that my beloved Tim is not around to see this. It would have devistated him. It would have made him angry to the point where he would have confronted them. I have decided not to jeopardize the investigation by talking to them.
I have been using my Footprints mug that Tim gave me for Valentines Day. I am letting him, my HP, my family, friends and certainly all of you carry me for awhile. The is shining, the winds soft and cool this morning. I can smell rain in the air. That will only bring lots of flowers . I see buds on the trees, and the forcythias starting to bloom. I am greatful I still have it in my heart and soul to look out and see the miracles of nature. They have not stolen that from me. Thank you all for your love and support. I can't do this without you. Much love and blessings to you and your families. Extra scratches and treats for my Alanon pets. Ejoy your weekend.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
((((((((((Karilynn & Pipers Kitty)))))))))) I am so sorry you had to go through that but can tell you have a good handle on things. I hope you are able to keep those things in your mind when you do get scared. It's not easy, I can only imagine. It's scary just to read about it. You and Piper are in my thoughts and prayers.
I know this has been a horrible ordeal for you, as it would be for anyone. I think you are coping good with the after math of it all. I really cannot blame you for being a little scared and worried at night. I know that I would be the same way.
You can never be too careful, without being parnoid!!! Make sure your doors and windows are locked and secured. Keep God in your prayers and he will keep you and Piper safe.
Be strong and hang in there.
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Clara
------------------------------------ What don't kill you, makes you stronger!!!
I know it is hard to overcome the feeling of being violated. Life is'nt fair sometimes. There are many things you can consider, good locks, 911 on speed dial, leaving a few lights on near doors, etc. But, one thing I have done at my home just in case I hear a noise during the night, I have installed two flood lights at each corner on the outside of the house. I have one switch in the bedroom just above the headboard of the bed. By fliping the one switch the whole outside of the house lights up with 8 flood light at the same time. I feel if all those lights came on, anyone with bad intentions on the outside would probably break and run. By having that one stitch that in an instance I can light up the entire outside of the house gives me a flilling of security.
Just something to consider.
HUGS, RLC
P.S. Any chance Pipers Kitty could be re-trained to be a "Wildcat"?
-- Edited by RLC on Saturday 18th of April 2009 05:23:19 PM
is shining, the winds soft and cool this morning. I can smell rain in the air. That will only bring lots of flowers 
. I see buds on the trees, and the forcythias starting to bloom. I am greatful I still have it in my heart and soul to look out and see the miracles of nature. They have not stolen that from me. Thank you all for your love and support. I can't do this without you. Much love and blessings to you and your families. Extra scratches and treats for my Alanon pets. Ejoy your weekend. 
