acceptance....
  came to me  to fill my heart as i walked thru the first three steps.
... i knew my life had become  unmanageable  ... i had  accepted i needed  alanons help.
  once i had this ..   the will    the ability to allow    my higher power to  help me  came easier.  it got easier  each day   to accept  hp to help and guide me  and  take from me  what was really not mine to  control
 i was able to  see   the three cs  differently too
 i cannot control it..   welll  thats everything ...lol.  except  my self.
 i can  control myself   if i really want to.   i can  stop the obsession  to make sure   i am covering for   or   cleanin up after   my ah
 i can step back and  let him live his life as he has chosen.  
 i can turn the focus   onto myself   and  take care of my inner  spiritual  faith
 the faith that keeps me believing  in  that strong feeling inside of "hope"  and "joy" and    Love.
 it is just there ..you know.,  in all of us  lol  its a great thing.  
  to feel   and  to know   there are others that want to feel  alive  and  are happy to be able to find a great program (Alanon)  to sorta guide us thru this maze of alcoholism
just knowin i'm not alone,. .  that...  gives me so much more strength to keep moving forward  with alanon in my life.  of my life.

what is important?     as i ... 
 surrender  myself  to the compassion i feel for those i love.  i learn each day more and more  that  Today is the blessing. 

i love the the 5 Gs'   they are my rock!   help me keep it focused on  acceptance   and   first things first:)
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 I get off his back
  ~ I get out of his way
  ~ I give him to God
  ~ I get into myself
  ~ and
  ~ I go to a meeting, if not here     my f2f meetings

 if i can surrender to   a program  that is only making me stronger   and Today i have found a way   to detach with love  from the choas   i can  now  step back and  let myself   breathe   to give myself that  second  that  minute  to think about  how i am going to respond   or react
 this leads me to  the word  (slogan)  THINK.
 ~ is what I say
 ~ thoughtful
 ~ is it honest
 ~ ist it intelligent
 ~ is it necessary
 ~ is it kind....

   i want to be happy   i want to feel   loved and  i am determined to work this program    it works if i work it!   i know it works., i am so grateful for all of you  for having found acceptance within my own  Self.  thanks so much for your unconditional love  and your support. you have been there for me  no matter the circumstance no matter the situations i have had to face.

thankyou. (((all)))