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I can't remember the last time I posted....My AH has been in a controlled drinking state for so long I had forgotten what it was like to sit and wait for the other shoe to drop...the last 3 weeks or so has been a reminder to me.....today I had to look up the 3 C's....didn't cause it, can't control it, and can't cure it....WOW....it's the little things, and big things too. I found tonight that he once again put of home things to go to the bar, when I talked to him on the phone he was at a drive through ordering food, I could hear him slurring and though OMG HE'S DRIVING, immediatly the old feelings came rushing back....my body tempature dropped to where I was trembling. I thought I was so far past that but now realize ... as long as he's activley drinking not really past it at all. The old feelings of the relationship being on the edge of disaster is back....so back to taking care of me again. How sad I feel ...I seen all the warning signs and thought for some unknown reason, he would snap out of it.... Good to know you are all here....Hugs
I am glad you knew where to come when the sadness and the fear of this disease surfaced in your life again I am so sorry for your sadness.
I too left alanon for a few years thinking I could do it alone. I knew all the tools, had faith in HP and that was all I thought I needed. I was wrong. I discovered I needed this fellowship. Meetings and sharing with others on the same journey is most important to me now.
I have also had that physical reaction...like a drug withdrawal reaction. Awesome how it felt to me and then a medical nurse explained it to me. I hope you have found the meeting rooms of Al-Anon. That is what worked for me and then I could move on to the literature, steps, slogans and such. The 3 Cs helps us to understand only one little part of the disease. There are many others to come to know and understand also.
Good to see your sweet face here. I'm sorry this is going on. It's back to Step 1 again. I seem to go back to Step 1 lots. Sometimes I substistute alcohol for whatever is nagging at me. Hope your grandson is keeping you busy. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Been a long time since I posted as well, seem to get busy living everyday life, raising a family, life in general I suppose. We get so involved in everyone else's life that we forget to have our own sometimes I think. I'm grateful to have this place and these people to come back to. Take care of you.
