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Today is a bittersweet day for me. It's my anniversary. I miss my beloved Tim very much. I have many happy memories to comfort me. I was blessed to call him my best friend, my lover and my husband. I remember last April 1. It fell on a Sunday and of course it being the first day of trout season we went fishing. We spent a glorious day fishing, laughing, watching a very happy lab fetch a stick on lake splashing away. We had a great lunch. It was very much a perfect day. We didn't catch a fish, although I did catch the most humungous crawfish I had ever seen. I never would have guessed that a year later I would be without him. So if you can give your A a hug, tell them you love them because I can't.
It's been 8 months since he left this place for a better world. I know he's with me. He sends the soft rains and gentle breezes to calm me. I still hear his voice saying "You can do that. That's my girl." I hear his laughter. I always said that I loved the man very much regardless if he drank or not. It's the disease I hated - never, ever him. Happy Anniversary honey, I love you very much. Thanks for loving Pipers and I.
On a happier note: IT'S PIPER KITTY'S BITHDAY! She's certainly brought a lot of love and laughter to us. She helped Tim many a time when he would have reached for a bottle. She's helped me through this difficult time. Right now it's raining and she's out chasing the leaves and getting wet. That's my girl. I brought her more stuffed mice. The ones she has are all tail-less as she flings them around and they come off. I will give her a Fancy Feast later and lots of treats. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIPER!
I always said that my idea of heaven on earth was my Tim sleeping on one side of me snoring away, me in the middle and Pipers on the other side purring away. Part of it is gone, but always in my heart. But my family is still intact in my heart and always will be. Today I will cook Tim's favorite Turkey Risotto and give Piper extra treats. I will celebrate my family that loves me. I will also celebrate my Alanon family who has helped me so much. Thanks for being part of my life. Much love and blessings to you all. Much love to all the "critters" too. Enjoy your day.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
-- Edited by Karilynn on Friday 3rd of April 2009 07:06:14 AM
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Wow! That is awesome & ur so strong. I don't really have any loved ones that have passed yet but I hope I can be half as gracious as you are. You can feel the love in your post, it brought me to tears in my tracks and all I can say is you two were Blessed to have found each other, truly.
Hugs to you & Piper. The last few years, there were many times my felines saved me just by being there & licking my tears.
P.S. I believe Tim can hear you, girl! Happy Anniversary, you rock!
-- Edited by kitty on Friday 3rd of April 2009 08:01:43 AM
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You have been a model for many here as to how to deal with loss, how to carry on and how to "live strong". May your anniversary be filled with your best memories of love and laughter.
Aunt Christy is sending a Happy Birthday to Pipers, filled with rodents . Mmmmm!! Yummy!!
love, Christy
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I hope you can have a peaceful anniversary today thinking about all the good memories of your beloved Tim. I am sure he would want you to do that. I think it is wonderful that you will be fixing his favorite meal today. Maybe Pipers can have a wee little bite of it to share in your celebration.
I am so glad to have you as a part of this family. As Kitty said, your graciousness is so inspiring. Have a blessed day my friend.
And Happy Birthday Pipers!!!!
The boys offered up the big "rat" they are staring at in the back yard (I caught ANOTHER possum in a live trap last night). But not sure how they are going to get the bow around the critters neck and delivery hasn't been worked out yet!!!
Learning to live with a broken heart they say. You are doing it well with lots of support I know from here. Happy Birthday Pipers! You know what your role is in your family. The same as Spot. I woke up this morn with Pepper (the dog) sleeping below my bed and protecting me and Spot laying next to me like my own children use to do. Bless you Tim, too.
Just hugs, sweetie. Oh, and I think there's a Pounce in my pocket for Pipers. May your blessings make themselves known to you this special day. I will squeeze hubby extra hard.
Aloha Karilynn...You set the example and the experience on acceptance with grace and gratitude. What a lesson celebrate the gift is rather than only grieving the loss. A part of what is left is left for the others who remain and who remain for the lessons on how to live life on life's terms while building that unshakable relationship with a power greater than yourself.
Everything is a gift. I'll take that with gratitude. Group Hug!! don't crush the cat!! (((((hugs)))))
I should have hugged my A before he left. We just had what I thought was a bad day. His old behaviors sort of brought out the suspicous attitude in me. Your strength and love are strong. The disease has me so confused right now, I can't tell the difference between the sin and the sinner. It's all a blur to me.
Know that I am with you and Piper in spirit and will be thinking of y'all through the evening.
Thank you so very much for sharing that. My alcoholic/addict passed away almost three weeks ago of a drug overdose. It is so strange because I cannot really think about the bad times we had. They were bad, but I've realized that I learned so much from them that I'd never take them back. It gives me such a hope to see you being so strong. Sometimes I don't think I'll be able to manage, while other days it's as if denial has completely come over me.
So if you can give your A a hug, tell them you love them because I can't. 
She's certainly brought a lot of love and laughter to us. She helped Tim many a time when he would have reached for a bottle. She's helped me through this difficult time. Right now it's raining and she's out chasing the leaves and getting wet. 
That's my girl. I brought her more stuffed mice. The ones she has are all tail-less as she flings them around and they come off. I will give her a Fancy Feast later and lots of treats. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIPER! 
Today I will cook Tim's favorite Turkey Risotto and give Piper extra treats. I will celebrate my family that loves me. I will also celebrate my Alanon family who has helped me so much. Thanks for being part of my life. Much love and blessings to you all. Much love to all the "critters" too. Enjoy your day. 
. Mmmmm!! Yummy!!
