I have to post this after my convention I have so much I want to share and can not fit it all in one post.  When I was t the covention I met a lot of amazing alocoholics in recovery.  I have so much respect for these people when they share their stories of rock bottoms and gratitude for recovery I felt so very humble.  I connected so much with the recovering alcoholics.  They follow the same steps as us.  They fight alcoholism and we fight the effects it has on us.  It has given me so much compassion for the struggle they face.  I understand my AB's condition a lot better and understand that I am very sick too.  The one thing that stood out for me in the convention at the final gathering which was very emtional was people really started to get better/recover when they connected with HP.  When they realised they couldnt do it alone. When they gave up their battle and humbly asked for help and guidance.  I love my partner so much I know now I carnt fix him and that I am getting really sick trying.  So I intend to get me well and hand him over to HP.  I dont bekieve I can do this while he is aroubd me tHAT  is how sick I have become.  I wish I did have the strength but the effect thhis disease has on me are also affecting my children.  I have to recover so that I can take care of them my AB is a gron man I love him so much but his disease is seeping into all of us I carnt have in in my life unless he admits he is ill and does something about it

-- Edited by Tracy on Sunday 29th of March 2009 02:00:07 PM