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AS those of you know that have been following my story......My 12 year old son suffered a concussion on his 12th birthday, and that really made me stop and take a look at the things I was worrying about up to that point (lack of child support, broken dryer, etc)....I realized my son and his health were all that mattered. I stopped, regrouped and refocused and set my priorities on the day I was in.
Well yesterday morning I was tested again. Came to work, on payday and started right in stressing over bills and how I could pull it altogether and make his appt today for his braces, etc. HOW could I possibly do all of this by myself and keep it straight. At this point I began to have a lot of ill feelings towards my EXABF AGAIN....I had let him in, learned to trust and count on him and his support and where was he now when we needed him? Where was he during the holidays? During my and my son's birthday? During my son's birthday when he was in the ER?
After about 4 hours into my day I started to feel REALLY ill....I didn't know what was wrong but knew something was....I ended up leaving work doubled over in pain and had to seek medical treatment. This time I was sick, and all I could think about was my son, and who would look after him if I had to go into the hospital. I was VERY lucky......turned out that luckily (and I can say this now) that it was only a kidney/bladder infection that is being treated with heavy antibiotics and pain meds. As much pain as I was in and as scared as I was yesterday-I knew it was my HP who wanted me to see nothing more than WHAT I need to focus on and worry about, everything other than our physical and emotional health and spiritual health does not really matter at all........If I just let it go, He always takes care of me and my son-has for 12 yrs now.
The meds are kicking in, I made it back to work, my son got his braces on today, my part for my dryer came in at HALF the original cost and was overnighted to me for free, and my son's support was in my account this morning.......It all worked out when I learned to have faith and believe in a power greater than myself. It really is hard to trust what we can't see, but it is sooooooooo well worth it....
Keep the faith and keep it simple shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
Thanks for the share...As you know the week I have had so far has been lacking "faith, Hope, and Strength" however, you have AGAIN... Reminded me to just "Whooo Up!!!" It will be what it will be weather I have anything to do with it or not... And the blessing I have are plenty enough to see me thru any and all obsticles that may come my way... What is Lloyd say..."Just Go With the Flow" Like a Raft on the South Branch :)....
Thanks babe... Love & Prayers... I'm happy for you! :) Jozie....
Keep your faith. The HP looks over children with prayerful single parents...he knows they need tender loving care. Try laying the backs of your hands down on your legs - with your palms up like in a yoga pose -- when you pray. I'm telling you that us busy women, jobs, children, bills, etc., etc. need to keep still hands at least for a time to pray. You'll be surprised that the tension seems to just 'lift' right out of your arms and palms upward to your HP. He loves and cares for you--just turn it over to Him.
HP is the dog at your side begging for your table scraps, I swear. The faster I can toss them down, the more serenity I have. Nice post and thanks for writing! Our bodies really are waaay smarter than our bossy egos... Jean
That is so cool that you got the message. I'm not sure I would have. It would have been just one more reason the world was against me LOL
I read something yesterday that seems very Al-anon-ish and I am trying to keep it in mind.
There once was a Taoist farmer. One day the Taoist farmers only horse broke out of the corral and ran away. The farmers neighbors, all hearing of the horse running away, came to the Taoist farmers house to view the corral. As they stood there, the neighbors all said, Oh what bad luck! The Taoist farmer replied, Maybe. Maybe not.
About a week later, the horse returned, bringing with it a whole herd of wild horses, which the Taoist farmer and his son quickly corralled. The neighbors, hearing of the corralling of the horses, came to see for themselves. As they stood there looking at the corral filled with horses, the neighbors said, Oh what good luck! The Taoist farmer replied, Maybe. Maybe not.
A couple of weeks later, the Taoist farmers sons leg was badly broken when he was thrown from a horse he was trying to break. A few days later the broken leg became infected and the son became delirious with fever. The neighbors, all hearing of the incident, came to see the son. As they stood there, the neighbors said, Oh what bad luck! The Taoist farmer replied, Maybe. Maybe not.
At that same time in China, there was a war going on between two rival warlords. The warlord of the Taoist farmers village was involved in this war. In need of more soldiers, he sent one of his captains to the village to conscript young men to fight in the war. When the captain came to take the Taoist farmers son he found a young man with a broken leg who was delirious with fever. Knowing there was no way the son could fight, the captain left him there. A few days later, the sons fever broke. The neighbors, hearing of the sons not being taken to fight in the war and of his return to good health, all came to see him. As they stood there, each one said, Oh what good luck! The Taoist farmer replied, Maybe. Maybe not.
According to Taoism, the true significance of events can never be understood as they are occurring, for in every event there are elements of both good and bad. Furthermore, each event has no specific beginning or end and may influence events for years to come.
