The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My exab brings lots of madness and pain into my life. I have a good job I enjoy, two beautiful, healthy children. Enough money to pay my bills. My own health.
Lots of friends in alanon, a loving mother, father and brother.
Yet i miss him so much the closeness I know this shows me that I need time alone. I know I should be hapy alone. I know he is my addiction not good for me but I seem to need him.
Is this how they feel about the drink guess I am just the same as him. But I want to face my pain addiction. Hope I can stay strong I know this too shall pass mostly hormones I think got to liaugh thankss
for me personally its about boundaries, lack of nuturing myself, inablity to set limtis and more. I am familiar wtih being around people who are in emotional pain and contorting msyelf to meet their needs. Familiar for me was heart ache, chaos and tremendous emotional pain. These days I don't have the chaos but I have to deal with a lot of issues all the time. For me some of the chaos camalfaged my emotional pain and lots of my issues.
Aloha Tracy...in the other program, AA, they warn especially during times of withdrawal..."Just don't take the first drink." With a little bit of adjustment that same alert will work for us also. In withdrawal? stay close to program, sponsors and the telephone numbers of others in recovery...MIP helps tons also.
(((((Tracy))))) I too, could have written pretty much the same thing as you and TLC months ago. I missed him so bad that I KNEW I could not go on, now I have the opportunity several months later to go out with him again, and I'm not certain HOW I feel about it now. I found the best source of help and hope for me was working my program, doing the steps, talking to my sponsor, posting and posting some more and my meetings and daily readings and prayer.
This too shall pass:) your friend in recovery shelly
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