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Not be on in like agessssssss......This was a poem i wrote this morning and decided to share it with you all.
I know you will understand it only two well.
Hope your all doing well, and shall catch up soon.....Take care..
WHY::
Why do i laugh, Why do i cry, Why do folks leave me, and not say goodbye.
Why is there no reason, why they never stay, Why do i blame myself, in that same old way.
Why do i feel so bad, Why don't i show them, when i can get mad, Why do i hide behind my tears, Why won't i allow them, to witness my fears.
Why is my life so predictable, Why can't i become, Missy invincible, Why do they walk away, Why do i always need them to stay.
Why does life move so very fast, Why can't i forget my horrendous past, Why should i live with all of my fears, Why can't i move on without all these tears.
Written By Fotoronic (Ally) xxx
I think this pretty much summs up the last thirty eight years of my life. Every thought i've ever felt has gone into these few words... xx
(((((Alley))))) You are so special. I just have to give you something an early sponsor taught me that I have found out is sooo true. There is no answer to the question why.
Unless I was willing to accept and humble enough to let go of the past the only answer to the "why" question was just another "why".
Keep coming back Alley girl and getting your lovin.
I am not sure who shared this but it was someone here. When asking "why" perhaps the question should be "why not?" You may not have been looking for answers just sharing but your poem gave me pause to consider.
love in recovery, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
((Ally)) is great to see you. Thanks so much for what you posted. and for letting all of us, who care so much about you, know that you 're ok / you are alright.
Taking that step ...to STAY in the MOMENT (in the Day *Today) to LET GO of the past of memories that bring on only sadness, confusion and frustration is a big step. i have learned some things that happened ... just do not have answers. And that most things i thought were about me... had nothing to do with me at all. it was someone elses problem that i was tryin to take on myself. It was not for me to keep hold of them... but to let go and to turn them over to their HP/God.
i know today, that it is possible to let go of past unexplained "whys" and "ifs." (even yesterdays questions of others behaviours).. the answers were not for me to know. they were for me to learn fromto move forwardand to keep doing what i know works for me ... to feel good and do right "Today."
For me it was a very positive step. ' a step forward. it does help to realize that in moving forward i am growing within ~ growing with my inner **SELF** (with my HP.) THIS gives me much more time and energy to enjoy my Life ~ Today.
Let Go and Let HP/God & WorK iT ~ WoRk iT!
**take what you like and leave the rest! love to yas!!
you 're ok / you are alright. 
they were for me to learn from to move forward and to keep doing what i know works for me ... to feel good and do right "Today
