Last night at my f2f meeting the topic was gratitude.  It was so nice to listen to everyone share something good and happy that was going on in their lives, as we all know Alcoholism does not always bring out the good and happy in us.
When I got home I got to thinking about how I was when I began here and how far I have come as a result of working the AlAnon program. I am truly blessed. 

Don't get me wrong I still have my "bad" days, and woke up this am to what I thought was the start of one, but within minutes I realized I-YEP ME-had the power to change that and make it a good day, and that was the choice I made.  I still feel for the EXABF and miss him, but the Why's and What if's have faded a lot,  and I've noticed that all of those type of days/feelings come farther in between now and don't last as long when they do come, so for that I am grateful.  I'm even learning(not quite there yet-lol) to be grateful to him for without him, I don't know that I would have found my way here where I am learning and "growing up" all over again.  I've also made a new BF-my sponsor and couldn't ask for any more love, compassion or understanding from another human being as I find in her.  I am blessed with new friends, I've become a lot closer to my sis in law on many levels and see her more as a friend now than family.  My son is awesome and even supportive in his 11yr old way (asked me last night if I was going to my Aniti Alcoholics Meeting?), and for that I am grateful......I have a nice home, wonderful furry kids, a great family albeit dysfunctional at best:), and most of I have been given the key to a whole new way of life, a life that can be as happy as I want it to be, because I do have the power to make it that way-with no one other than my HP as my guide.  What a wonderful way to start the day......rising to a sun filled sky full of gratitude and hope for a wonderful day!!!
Thank you all for letting me share and for being a part of my life:)
Keeping it simple
Shelly