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I've spent a lot of time crying and in fear the past couple of weeks. I've been sick and really have gotten away from my program. Then, on Sunday night I went to bed at 8:30, and I got a pretty good sleep last night too. Suddenly, I feel a need to express some gratitude. Amazing how that works...
My son made a new friend, who recently moved here from out of state. He is from divorced parents, a good student, and incredibly polite. Just an overall nice kid. He's the type of kid who has already acheived all his community service hours. He offered to help me with my dishes last night. I see a nice bond between the boys. He is sooo different than the others. I hope he sticks around.
Our accountant offered to meet with me last weekend to help me make a monthly budget. We discovered that my monthly expenses exactly meet my monthly income (plus support from the A for the mortgage). Also, he told me that good things have been happening with the business, he is doing it all pro bono out of concern for us, and he refuses to enable my A husband. Thank you God.
I have a job, and my superiors have not been pressuring me to move from per-diem to full-time, where I will get benefits but take a significant pay cut.
I decided to make a God box. I found a little jewelry box that I received as a gift from my kids years ago. I opened it up and discovered it was also a music box. I didn't remember that. The song it plays? Beauty and the Beast. I'm glad I can see the humor in that.
My therapist has been pushing me to take a 5-week codependency class for those with addicts/alcoholics. Been resistant, for I just could not see the possibility given my work schedule and the busyness of having 3 kids. My A's sister offered to help me with the kids, and the timing of it all couldn't be better. I hope to start next week. To be able to go is a miracle for me.
I've gotten a bit behind on the posts here, but I think of you all often. I hope to catch up a little at a time now that I am recovering.
Keep on keeping on.
Blessings,
Lou
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Great post Lou...the God Box and the gratitude. It working cause you're working it...Thank God indeed!! As for me I'll be okay if you don't check in and are taking care of yourself...Don't know about the rest of the family they will speak for themselves.
Hey Lou, lovely to hear from you, and delightful to hear of your progress and the things that are happening for you. It is no less than you deserve, truly.
I often think of you too and it is okay that you do not call in as much, if things are working out and you are working your programme that speaks volumes to me. I do not call in as much, and feel less dependent on checking out my every move nowadays, even though I do read a lot more than my posts would indicate. I am working my programme and I am putting everything to the God of my understanding all the time.
Still have ups and downs, don't we all?
Still feel one of the babies of the family when I look at the old timers in this family. However, lots of good things seem to have happened to a lot of the people who joined up around about the same time as you and me.
True witness to MIRACLES IN PROGRESS - and YOU ARE ONE OF THEM, (((((Lou))))). True encouragement to those who have joined since our arrival here too, would you not agree? Suzannah
-- Edited by Suzannah at 04:44, 2009-02-11
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