This my first post, although this is the first place I come every morning. I have been married for almost 12 yrs with a 9 and 11 year old. I have been seperated for 2 yrs. My husband is currently in rehab and has been for 4 mths. He basically took the kids to school one morning and never came home. It took me about a month to find him and realize that he had lost his job, was living in a motel with his girlfriend, and doing any drug he could get his hands on.  I moved myself and the children out of our home, the only home they had ever known. Within a week he had moved his girlfriend into our home and abandoned our family completely. After playing this game for a while, he was arrested and his girlfriend was gone.  This is how he ended up in rehab.  While in rehab, we had began to work on our marriage.  I thought things were going so good.  I received a call last week from the facility saying that he had relapsed. He came to my house for the weekend because he had nowhere else to go.  Not exactly true, I wanted him here.  My enabling kicking into high gear. For the entire weekend, I listened to I made a mistake, please don't give up on me, I know I can do this.  On monday morning, he went back to the rehab facility and they placed him in another 6 wks inpatient facility.  His relapse wasn't only with drugs, it was also with the old girlfriend. ( I'm sure she hand delivered the drugs)
I come here every morning and read post and it really helps.  The other posts this morning really made me realize that I have come a long way.  My hearts truly go out to those struggling because I was there not long ago.  I didn't want to get out of bed, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I had a hard time taking care of my children. Through prayer and alanon it does get easier, One day at a time.