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Well, Tonight I went to my F2f, I think I realized, I am right were I need to be... I listened to them people chat, and talk and for once I listened to 'what' they were saying instead of "watching" them talk!!! Sounds dumb I know, but tonight there was a lady that made it 6 years in al-anon, and she pretty much told us that with out it she doesn't know where her life would be.
It got me thinking... If ONE women can spend 6 years going to al-anon, what really do we learn here.. And then someone else spoke, "Another long time member" and she said, that even if her life was back on track, she still feels like it is now her job to make sure someone ELSE has someone to tell thier story too... Some else that just needs to sit and listen to someone else speak...
I seem to get that...What a great bunch of people i have found and brought into my new extended family, the love and compassion that they show each other is un believeable, and I am now... slowly... one day at a time starting to see & feel & express & share my emotions... to people that accually get it without judgement...
The first day I went I remember sweating, thinking what am I going to have to say to these people, really... And at times I do still struggle to find the words I want to say when it is up to someone else to speak, not that I am uncomfortable now around them it is more that I can't put my thoughts together all that fast on the fly...lol...But I am trying harder then I ever have to get me and my thoughts together, and accually I look forward everyweek to my F2F meetings, I have only been to about 6 meetings, and at a most there may have been 6 people, well tonight there was 10...WOW... Most had been there before, but a couple had come in that wasn't there in the time I was, so it was nice seeing new faces, and just seeing us all be there to support one another, and once I realized that the "after" meetings was the whole bounding thing... WOW did that help... THen I understood that I didn't have to "Get" what they were saying, I just wanted to understand their pain, and once you see that, then you see the common things that combined us...
I guess if I had to pick a word for what I think happened to me tonight, well I would say I was truly, completely, and emencely... "Enlightened"... Thanks HP.... I have been waiting on a sign and just glad you came and thru my a bone... And a Hug...
So tonight I close, being grateful for yet another end to a long week, but also a great beginning of a hopefully beautiful weekend... Sweet Dreams to All...
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) ALL...................
Thanks to all of you for coming here and sharing with me your life story's. I am slowly learning how to take care of me, and live a better life and I have all of you to thank for keeping me Coming back, and helping me make it One Day at a time....
Friend in Recovery Missing....
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(((((missing))))) It's funny how we can sit in the same f2f meeting and walk away with totally different perspectives....that is what continues to amaze me also.
So glad that you found what you were looking for.....for me last night was just needing the compassion, and spiritual charge to help me get through whatever is next in line.
But you are correct......what a wonderful group of people, both there and here.......so welcoming and loving and comforting......it is truly a blessing to be a part of something so much bigger than all of us.
Keeping it simple~loving life one day at a time. Shelly
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Thanks for your post, and the ESP it may give others who are considering attending their first f2f meeting. You are just another one of the thousands of success stories of Al-Anon . I am proud to say I am one also. Yep, It works if you work it.
