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((((((FAMILY))))))) I have been away for awhile. Some of you may recall that I have brain cancer, had a successful surgery last January to remove a tumor. But I suffer from excessive fluid on my brain, in my spinal canal. January 23, I had a spinal tap to release some of the fluid, the pressure builds up and I have non stop headaches which require narcotic pain killers to just knock the edge off of the pain. I could get stronger pain meds but I have to be somewhat functional to tend to my family. Well, anyway, I had to spinal tap on Friday the 23rd and thought i would have a 2 day recovery, over the weekend, but I had a complication. There was a leak where the needle had been inserted and spinal fluid was coming out. This causes excruciating pain and a horrendous headache. So I then had to have another spinal on that Tuesday to have a blood patch done, whiche requires another needle going into your spinal canal to put blood into your spinal canal to seal the hole. So another few days for recovery for that one. It was a bad week for me. I am feeling better now, a little lower pain pain but nothing I can't handle. But I missed coming here to the board and reading and sharing. I hope that this spinal tap lasts for some time to come so I don't have pain from excessive fluid building up. Guess what, my AH was fairly helpful and supportive but didn't stop drinking. Not that I even remotely thought that he would. Hoped maybe but knew better. I always have hope but I focused on myself and what I had to do to just feel a little better during the whole thing. I have never known pain like that before. I also had no idea there was a possibility that there was a chance there could be a leak. I have had 5 spinal taps in the past 2 years and never once have I ever been warned about that. My depression is in full force and I am having a difficult time dealing with that. I think the chemicals in my system are really messed up having gone through so much in such a short period of time. But I have an appointment with my therapist next week so I will have an opportunity to work through that. Just being on here helps a lot though. Thanks for listening/reading. Glad to be back...
(((((wildthang86))))) Sounds to me like you have been through the mill health wise, my heart and prayers go out to you and your family. Hang tight to your HP and He will lead you where you need to go. Good to have you back!
keeping it simple shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
I'm happy that the proceedure was positive and led you back to the board. I glad also that you became aware that at least for you the alcohol does have the capacitiy to support. I needed to learn to see the good in the alcoholics in my life also.
Spinal taps....goose bumps from the past. I pray all their work and skills were right on and that you will heal as you want...completely. I believe that is what your HP wants for you also.
Good time to focus on your own care and practicing sharing your needs with others in your family.
Prayers out to you for all that you have made it thru in these last 2years... You def. have alot going on, but sounds as tho you are slowly getting a handle on it! You made it back here for your recovery should be a great one...
Glad you made it back to the Family, I know how much they have done for me in such a short time, so Keep coming back, and keep your focus on you so that you heel the way your HP intents you too...
Love & Prayers... Missing...
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Forgiveness- Isn't about forgettingwhat happened,its about Giving Up,All Hope,of a Better Past!
Michelle, I received your PM a few days ago. I have been busy with business and have not sent you a reply. I will soon. Sorry.
This response is not for you and if you do not mind I'll share a few things with the members to let them know what I think about you, and also little about you.
First let me say reguardless of the situation with her AH, her health, problems with her childern, or anything she has to face, Michelle always sees her glass as half full--- Always---. Never half empty. I have always taken pride in the fact that I am a positive thinking person. But, I have never had to go through anything close to what Michelle has gone through and has to endure, and in each case with that same great attitude. I would hope I could be just half that strong. Her attitude continues to amaze me.
Michelle, I admire your courage, and look up to the example you set with what you have on your plate. I firmly believe that if the sky ever fell in the state of Tennessee you would be there to catch it before it hit the ground.
Folks, that is not what I think, that is what I know about this lady, and I thought you needed to know also. Keep her in your prayers as I do.
wow, you have impressed me! I had breast cancer, my A-hubby had lymphoma... we never know if it will rear up again... our prayers are with you. LOVE, db55
