The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
last night i had this split second flash of realizaion. that i dont have to deal with him (put up with him) if i dont want to. i can stay completely away from him if i want to. Woah...total departure from what ive been trying to do. It wasn't a concious thought but raher it just slipped into my head in the midst of pain...and I heard it and I listened to it. It was a matter of self-protection I believe that the idea entered into my head. now this morning trying to decide how i feel about it. it feels like its a way for me to restore some sanity. ive been affected by sleeplessness, anxiety, knots in stomach, excessive worrying. im a wreck!!! but its scary and makes me sad, and makes me feel awkward - that i am taking control of myself and he's not gonna win this one. i guess i usually concede to make him feel better. yeah i know, im sick. but its ok...at least i am working on my recovery.
PS. i also think that when he "accidently kicked" his chihuahua last night while trying to shoo him away - it just really did something to me. :(
Jehnifer, Detaching is a wonderful Al-Anon tool. It never wears out, you can continue to use it over and over. I do, and my detachment tool is over two years old, but it still works like it did the first time I ever used it. It works if we work it.
Jehnifer... WOW do I know were you are... well not your whole story,but the taking control of your self... funny thing is, I haven't really known 'me' in a really long time, and as i keep pulling "Me" out and "Let'n Go & Let'n God"...WOW what a differnace my life has taken...ANd though I am truly blessed that I found this place and al-anon... It still scares me at times to look deeper with in myself in fear of whats in there... :(
This program has brought me such "Hope" I will pray it does the same for you... Your in the right place... and "It works if you work it"...
(((((HUGS)))))
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Forgiveness- Isn't about forgettingwhat happened,its about Giving Up,All Hope,of a Better Past!
