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Yesterday was one year since my first "serious" post to this board. I had posted a few times three years ago, but it has been a year since I started working my program in earnest.
I am very grateful for all the ESH you have all shared directly in replying to my posts, or indirectly through reading your posts and replies to others.
I am also grateful to my HP for being present in my life more and more.
So how am I doing?
I've made the greatest progress in defining and knowing my HP, setting and keeping my boundaries and detaching with love. As a result there are days when I wake up and finish it happy. It's not perfect though - today, after helping my AH up several flights of stairs, I'm feeling some resentment. Thought I'd post here to celebrate my progress instead of brewing my resentment further
The area I'd like to do better in is taking care of myself. One of my character defects is that I can be lazy - both in regular exercise and what I put into my mouth. I'm asking HP to please help me with that. To do my part im going to start another fellowship - weightwatchers. Wish me well!
I'm also thinking about heading into the steps 6-9. I have sometimes thought about those I have wronged, but not sure I'm ready to make amends yet. Should I make amends to a nosy neighbor who I was less than gracious to? I owe my greatest amends to someone who died last year. I guess a letter to her might be best. I'm feeling very guilty about her.
Happy birthday to you...Happy birthday to you...Happy Birthday deeeear Rockeeeee. Join with me now.... Happeeeee Birthday to youuuu.!!
God has it been a year already? Another wrinkle (just for me that is).
It's been a pleasure to watch your effort and growth Rocky. Thanks for letting you share. Heading for 6 thru 9 for me was a guided step process. Like the warning goes "Don't try this alone!!" I was soooo amazed at the honest realizations and corrections in my attitudes, behaviors and then my life that came from this process. When you are ready HP is ready. When you seek compassion and forgiveness than HP who loves without condition reveals understanding and gentleness I have not experienced from any of my other real-life parents. Don't hesitate Rocky...there are miracles coming.
(((((hugs)))))
In another year I bet I'll still remember the words to Happy Birthday.
