The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Since new year I have been really working on getting out and doing as much as I can to improve my physical health. Every day I work on eating better, and trying to work on getting better on so many levels. I am fully aware living with an active alcoholic for 8 years took an enormous toll on me. Right now I am getting ready to sign up for another health program that will help me to move to a better place physically.
Yet I'm constantly aware that I feel that I am not doing enough and "should" be better. What a conundrum. I've certainly found it really hard to find face to face meeting that are accessible and work for me. I tried pretty hard over the holidays and fell short. I know I haven't tried exhaustively.
At the moment I am pretty committed to the physical improvement so maybe I have to wait on the social support issue when I've already "waited" for so long. The physical issues of going to many doctor appointments, dental appointments and doing other things that are necessary to my survival are so key.
I wonder does this come in stages. Will it be that I get to a better place physically then have the stamina and the patience to really go out and find the meetings that "work" for me. There is one new meeting I am going to try next week that is near to my house. I'm willing I know that much.
I know now I have better boundaries that finding a good meeting will be so key for me. I also know that I'm not wiling to "settle" anymore.
I to hope to one day have your strength, as you carry on your new found indepentance...Your doing it one day at a time, and making strides...
I have not lived with A in the last 13 years, but they are all around me like 'Bee's to Honey'... I too have those moments were I wonder, :What Else: could I do to make this seem more like its right, but then I have to remind myself...That to will come when the time is right. You are doing your goals you have set, and when the F2F come availiable and you want it bad enough...You'll get there...
Give yourself the time you need to go at your own pace... Your worth it girl... Enjoy the Journey... And keep sharing your strength...
Friends in Recovery Missing...
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Forgiveness- Isn't about forgettingwhat happened,its about Giving Up,All Hope,of a Better Past!
