The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
As you all know Christmas and Thanksgiving were hard going for me. Living around addicts (as I do) is hard going. I'm no better at it now than I was when I first got here. All that's changed is that I stopped trying to cure them and stopped wishing they were anything but what they are. I guess that is a seismic shift for me.
I'm starting to see things lift a little. A friend in the program told me that when he first got there it seemed like a long long time before things got better. Maybe that is the one it is going to be for me. Right now things are marginally better and that is a relief.
I still don't have a vision on how and when I'm going to be able to make huge changes to my living situation but I am better and that's a change in itself.
Baby steps darlin baby steps. What I found was that others saw the changes in me long before I saw any so you are probably doing a lot better than you think you are. For me, as long as I kept my focus on me I was walking the right road.
HUGS
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Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks all over it.
Rushing this program is an oxymoron. Living and working toward a peaceful, balanced life is done only one day at a time. I also experienced what Mobirdie gave as feedback; both in myself and in others. You've made changes. Awesome enough...keep going.
