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At times over the years I have taken life way to serious. I worried about all those things that I had no control over. Being a fixer as most of us are, I spent a lot of time and effort fixing others problems. I worried about what I would do if this or that happened.
Just this week as I sat in my Monday Al-Anon meeting something was said that made me think, I no longer take life as serious as I used to. Why was that? Should I be concerned? As I was driving home home I realized for the first time one more blessing this program has given me that I was not even conscious of. By taking care of myself and not being totally absorbed with every little thing that was going on in the world around me, it came to me, it was not a matter of me not taking life as serious as I used to. It was the fact that the program had taken so much of the unwanted and unnecessary clutter and stress out of my life. I've stopped worrying about all the things I have no control over. I turned my AW over to my HP months ago. I've made lots of other changes since I got in this program and all for the better. At that point I smiled to myself and continued to drive home.
I too am trying to Declutter my life, I too feel the need to help the people all around me and I never really think of my self anymore then to grab a meal here and there, and they usually aren't the best either...lol... This program I just started and I am already amazed at what it has brought to my life, it is so strange to me that I am 35 years old and yet, I never knew that there was other people going thru the same things as I did, or do on a regular basis... I am so grateful that i found al-anon and all of you...Who knew life could be this good...
Thanks so much for your share...
Missing out...
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Forgiveness- Isn't about forgettingwhat happened,its about Giving Up,All Hope,of a Better Past!
Okay we're on the very same highway and you might be just ahead of me. This is a reoccuring theme over the past year and I've admitted that maybe it's not a thread that keeps me attached to the uncontrolable but a steel cable. If you've got a hack saw or grinder of acetylene torch in your tool box in your trunk put your flashers on so I can see you and pull over. I'll be in the truck with the big tires up front and the small ones in the back.
Jerry, If you will read the last sentence in my post, it says I am "only" on the way home. I have not arrived yet. The road has less bumps and fewer pot holes thank goodness. Also, you are way ahead of me because I can barely see your tail lights. As for the tool chest you should know the only thing I keep in it is a pair of "wire snips", remember you gave them to me. The snips still work, and I still use them almost daily.
((((RLC)))) thank you soooo much for the ESH! You wrote pretty much exactly what I have been feeling/struggling with this week. Everything seems so calm, so blahhhhh and low key/stressless and I went right back into my mode of waiting for the bad things to happen-a self fulfilling prophecy of mine........After reading your post I realize I am not alone, and blahhhhh and calm is good, it's just new and scarey to me all at the same time... thank you sooo much for sharing!! Your friend in recovery...... Shelly
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Put down the magnifying glass and pick up the mirror!
RLC, it;s funny to me to see you write your post, because you have always told me to take care of myself, which I took to mean not to worry about the things I have no control over. Plus do things just for me, I have a brand new trashy novel by the way. Oh yes, I love those things. So cheesy but it's mine all mine. I try to read at least once a day for at least 20 minutes. It's just a small thing I do for myself, other than my morning coffee everyday. But it means a lot to me and I feel so revived when I get the opportunity to read. Silly as it may sound. I have you to thank for where I am now. Your support means so much to me, as you should know. Just keep making these realizations and sharing. It was a wonderful ESH and who doesn't need a dose of that once in a while?
i do know that in the blue book, path to alanon, there's a saying in there somewhere along the lines of our joy and happiness suffering from the disease and i wish i could find it because it's put in a way that would be powerful for you ..
if you need another online site, www.stepchat.com has 24 hours of others who meet in open chat .. i use this site myself when i can't hit the f2f . there are meetings pretty much every night and i believe it's one of the best online sites i have found yet for meetings ..
i know what it's like to want more in one day but i think we get what we need for this one day .. i do know more will come as .. the saying goes he who has will find more .. it's such a program of so many blessings ..
if something strikes a chord i'll come back and post it ..