The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
well, its saturday night. Not every saturday night but maybe once a month there is a party in my house. I live in this house with two other women. Both are younger than I am. One owns the house. We are room mates.
tonight is a party. I went to dinner. I went to a coffee house and sat and wrote. I am back here now and its beginning to heat up but its only 8:30PM.
I will go to a 10PM movie. i will get back here around midnight and see how it is.
I can remember this sound- the sound of people getting drunk in the house below me. I can remember this as a child. The sound of ice falling into glasses. the sound of beer tops coming off. Once in awhile someone falling or something. Laughter. Loud voices. Not being able to shut it off or make it stop.
Maybe a movie and then a motel room or just the motel room and a rental movie. I certainly hope peace of mind and serenity for you as you go about your changes. Been there...done that. Thank God for Al-Anon.
Well you know that I understand absolutely perfectly. I've begun to ask HP what is it that I have to learn to stop being surrounded by people who are drunk. And what comes up is boundaries, boundaries, boundaries. Another thing for me is people pleasing. I've stopped wanting to be loved by everyone.
It turned out OK. I got home around 1AM and it was all winding down. I just went to bed with earplugs in and it was so late and so waaay past my bed time that I just passed out and fell asleep the second my head hit the pillow. It turned out OK. But I still need to find a quieter place to live. One that is free of alcohol...thanks for your good thoughts, hugs, J.
