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The God and me relationship is takening a clearer perspective as it should be due to the continues practice of prayer and meditation. The prayers are no longer pleadings and whinings and have progressed into father-son communications. The meditations continue at the 24/7 rate that my earlier sponsor told me were possible and helped me to achieve years ago and there are consequences to everything I do and don't do I have learned in the Family Groups. A new consequence or spiritual awakening arrived yesterday afternoon as I was just about to quit work. An event happened that reminded me that no matter where I was or what I was doing I could not outdistance the eyesight of my Higher Power. This in itself wasn't a new awareness I have been expressing gratitude for this along time. What the new awareness was is that while I had been working in program to get and keep my Higher Power in my life and world the exact opposite prespective is true. I am in my HP's world! My HP's is not a figment of my imagination I am a figmant of my HP's imagination and love. I didn't by anyway shape of form create my HP. It is the other way around and of course that seems so basic to other believers whom I have heard express their beliefs and I didn't agree yet I have for years worked sooo diligently at arriving at my own understanding of my HP that it seemed that I had created Him/Her. (Him/Her because there are lots I don't understand yet and am willing.) So I carry that awareness thru the rest of yesterday and thru the night and into this mornings meeting an while there I hear another recovering brother wipe it down and polish it up by sharing that there were many new "perspectives" that he had come to believe in recovery and that the greatest of all was the spiritual perspective that he never had control ever no matter where he was at or what was happening all the way from "back then" right up to "today" and while all the good of today maybe enjoyable and a blessing to him, if he lost it all for what ever reason his spiritual perspective would remain intact...that he is loved by and cared for by God (his HP) without any effort of his own.
No matter how bad or how good it gets. I can never outdistance my HP. My HP doesn't forget His creation.
I have never doubted my HP's presence though at times I have wondered why I was allowed free will. LOL The truth was my HP was always guiding me, sometimes I was not listening as well as I should have. I have noticed also a change in my prayers, no longer the please help ... it's turned to a hello, thank you for X, and what do you think about this or that? It feels right, as simple as that.
wow take nothing for granted 18 months ago I lost my home through the A's actions. Now I have very very little but I am grateful for it. I also know that any day I can lose what I currently have.
