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It was a different Thanksgiving for me this year - I spent the first night in my new rent house. Sleeping on an inflatable bed that didn't hold air, in an older house with absolutely nothing - it was the most wonderful thing I had done in a long, long time.
Then Friday, I moved my belongings and my 1/2 of the furniture into that little rent house.
Some of you will remember the struggles I went thru 2 yrs ago to get that beautiful new home to replace the Hurricane Rita damaged house. Well, I left it. That place is not my home anymore.
Active addiction, unrespect boundaries, fear and constant chaos are not good attributes to have decorating a home. I leaped and my God provided - the path has been so clearly cut for me - if it wasn't for the trust that I have been given in recovery, the support of my recovery family - I would have doubted it - You know the whole too good to be true?
But it's not - it is good and it is for me.
I am Happy, Joyous and Free - Like i have never been before.
I still pray daily for my soon to be ex AH - he is a wonderful man that suffers from many addictions, that he is unable to give to the God of his understand and surrender to help that is available to him.
I pray for his God's best for him.
Some days I make it thru with just breathing, some days it still hurts a little - but mostly I'm doing very well - just so grateful to not be alone -
to have my HP and all of my recovery family carrying me thru this!
Wishing you Serenity, Joy & Love, Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
Unrespect as well as dysfunctional boundaries is something I've lived with all my life.
I am really working on turning it over and working on what can I do to move to another place. I'm glad this has worked out for you. I've certainly been there with the air beds that deflate on you. I'm not going to get another one. A foam pad is more preferable.
Thanks for the update. It's real good for this ole recovering person to hear how you are doing it. I can use the stuff that works. I can only imagine how you handled sleeping on an inflatable that didn't hold air. You got thru that and will get thru even better. Happy, joyous and free!! There isn't a greater high than that.
yeah, I have a leaky air matress happy joyous and free story, too! A bed of nails would have felt like heaven, just to be alone, able to rest, be unafraid, in peace and quiet, I would have slept on terazzo and it would have felt like cloud 9. Brings back memories of gratitude- not a stick of furniture, nothing in the world but the leaky air matress and some clothes....what goodness that was! Hugs, J.
So happy for you. Sometimes less is more. I really wonder where I should be too. Although, I am separated from my AHSober, I wondered about divorce, where I work, and most of all my family. A clearly cut path would be a gift to me. Thanks for showing us the way.
