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Sully the monster dog was spinning in circles, dancing around ... I said ok I will let you out, only because I have thumbs and you don't. Now I did not really want more snow tracked thru the house when he comes back in, but playing in it makes him happy. My legs are still wobbly and I have a full day so no matter how much he wants me to come play with him, I am not taking the risk of it so I can do my required tasks today. I am watching from the window and cheering him on as he plows thru and mashes his face in the snow.
I let him go, even helped him to do it. I made a choice to care for myself over his wants, and yet I can stand at the sideline and cheer even when he takes a fall and looks back at me with a face full of snow, slightly bewildered. It is a small way for me to practice, recognizing how it feels to give of myself with no expectation, letting go, taking care of me, and being able to take joy in another's (even a canine) decisions without having to control it. Practice does not always make perfect, but it sure feels good to practice to learn how to feel right inside myself
Good for you. I really struggle over balancing taking care of my pets and myself. Some days I do better than others. There isn't one day when I don't think I'm blessed to have them.
Great story, Jen. Its truly a gift when we can take are of us without guilt and enjoy others happiness as well.
Jen
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
