It was a right on decision to attend the Super Saturday Al-Anon Family Group
meeting.  After the usual opening protocol the secretary announced the topic
of "Self Focus" and the membership stayed on it.  The feedback was as usual
for me awesome.  I'm amazed still at the ability to learn from new perceptions
and of course grateful.   One of the members shared with me after the meeting
that she had her "Aha" moment.  That moment when everything in life shifts
and clarity comes and you never want to go back to how it use to be while
also knowing that you don't have to...it's a choice, always was a choice and
now she had much better choices and desires.  She shared with me the gap
between what it use to be like and what it had become was very little wider
than an eight of an inch maybe and when she crossed that distance every
thing changed.  She suddenly found herself in a new world as a new person.
Her trigger with a breast cancer screen and the consequence was total freedom
from fear, anxiety and the need to control life. 

I've witnessed so many of these miracles including my own and it will never
cease to amaze me (thank God) how everything changes...mind, body, spirit
and emotions.  We become new people...new creations and everything is
different and even the alcoholics and addicts over time change as a result of
being in contact.  No they don't become saints or the gods we really have
been wanting to worship...they just become changed.   This member related
to me that her alcoholic...and her family, have come to relax around her and
are actually giving back to her what she has learned to give to herself and
to others.  She is twelve stepping and doing it unconsciously without desiring
to change anyone.   Of  course  life  is  not  perfect  for  her.  She knows it
will never be that way ever and it's no longer an issue.

One of the things she mentioned to me was that she has come to the
behavior of "loving anyway"...loving her alcoholic and anyone for exactly who
they are without wanting them to be different and at the very same time
loving her self as much.  I have come to learn and believe, as a member of
this fellowship that this is the most clearest and nearest example of "God
love" I have ever witnessed.  It is so powerful and it moves others who
come in contact with it. 

I have more time in recovery than this woman and I knew I was in front of
"the teacher".  She let go and stopped struggling.  She stopped fighting the
process and practiced trusting it and that it could do for her what she saw it
doing for others.  She came to believe that what she was witnessing was
a better reality and then that eight inch she surrendered.   What a totally
remarkable event.  Her whole aura is in one peace...what and how she talks
is exactly how she walks.    I will always want that and that is why I keep
coming back.

Had to share it.   Love you all (unconditionally of course)  (((((hugs)))))