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Have worked morn to night on the main house yard. Got it all cleaned out. Then took out a huge flower bed, put all gravel to the front porch. Then put down this pretty bark stuff called hog fuel.
Every joint in me is screaming. But wow from the road it looks sooo nice.
The ducks kept following behind me eating up all the worms, Vicious Sid the white goose stays so close to me he almost is hooked to me. Honking the whole time.
My little black hairy football dog Happy is tearing around chasing the guineas.I am up to my arms in muck taking the pond out. These tenants walk in and out and that is it. So it is super simple now.
I am doing my best to stop the thoughts, of no family, no husband etc. Working on continually looking at now as now. I am ok as I have hp.
Was hard sometimes. When I was tearing up the front I had to cry for awhile just to let it out.
I honestly do feel so sad for my AH. He will get sober and that little boy in him will be so tortured and lost. There is no one for him at all. He has a good heart, he is very, very good man. But he is so so so sick. In jail/prison? whatever he gets, his nice him will wake up and there he will be, in a horrible place that the disease put him.
If aa is available, he will dive in. I am going on Wednesday to his court thing. I will be wiser this time. Now I know how they naturally will be the best they can be. Especially when they have no where to go when they get out.
See I am still insane enough to think about going to the gal he parasites off of and tell her to stay away from him. Do not allow him back into her home. I want to make it very clear, very clear to stay away. Of course I will not.
I suppose if she stopped enabling he would just find some other lush to parasite off of.
Anyway tomorrow my son is coming to dive into the inside of the house.
Can someone go get me some water? I am too tired to get out of bed.
Tiger balm sounds good to me today too ... I love reading about your furry and feathered farm friends ... oh and snouted ones too. It makes me want to paint pictures of your stories, it would be such a good children's book.
I bet all that work makes everything look wonderful. Spring will be beautiful there.
Way to take care of you and your animals, it's so inspiring! I know it's hard sometimes, I cry too, it's a good release like you said. The ducks following you around reminded me of a movie i just saw called "duck" (it was about this guy who was at the end of his rope, lost his wife and son and was about to take his own life w pills until this baby duck walked up to him..he became mother to the duck who had lost his family too.) animals ARE so beautiful!
