realize that I will react to
people when they hurt me. I used to be a doormat and not do anything.
Then somewhere along the line I became so resentful from holding it all
in I think that I now snap at people because they are hurting me. I
don't deserve to be hurt but other people don't deserve it either just
because they did something to me. I also am not responsible for other
people's emotions and feelings. I am not obligated to other people or
there whims. If someone is having a hard time of course I want to help

them but helping is not the same as allowing myself to be controlled.
This step reminded me of a couple of days ago I got an anonymous e-mail
from someone saying "You are scary." I still don't know what this
person meant by that. But, I was reading one share about resentment and
anger so I guess that could make me scary. But, I e-mailed this person
back and said why would you say something like that? there is no need
for it and it's unacceptable. I did it in a nice way. I have not heard
back from this person and I don't expect to. I think they realize what
they did was hurtful and uncalled for. But, I realize how I set some
boundaries even with a stranger. It also gives me confidence I can
stand up for myself with a good attitude versus having a bad one. i am
still not feeling well from the flue so I didn't go to the group again
plus, next week is thanksgiving break. So I will go in December. I went
to my appointment today at the mental health center it went OK even
though some of the people there kind of scared me. Not to be judgmental
or anything like that. My next appointment though is not until January.
I also made an appointment for the dentist to take care of myself. I've
been putting that off but I finally got that done today.