The other night I was saying the serenity prayer out loud and reading the steps. I got to step 7 and I was thinking about how I really do want my HP to remove my shortcomings. I've been so frustrated and impatient lately and I don't want a bad attitude anymore. So I humbly prayed and asked HP to remove these defects of character. I cried. The past few days after that actually where more hectic and crazy then before. But, I see now that I believe my HP was trying to show me my defects of character so I can choose to make another choice next time. Yesterday I did go to church and I prayed the serenity prayer and thought of all the encouragement from everyone and thought about how I really do want to change and how it starts with my HP and myself making better choices. So I did try to go to that college group and ended up getting lost. What's the about? lol. But, I will definitely try to find the place again next week. I found some better directions. Then today I went to my counseling and it really reiterated everything I'm learning here and my HP is showing me. Like about how I have to put myself first and take care of myself. I have to do what is best for me. HP and me have to come first. But, I can do it in a better way then just getting frustrated and annoyed when that doesn't happen. I got my magazine with my article and read it. I am so proud of myself I cried because I am actually starting to feel like I am worth it and I can be successful and do amazing things. I feel like this is just the beginning for me. Tomorrow I'm attending an Alanon f2f meeting so I will update everyone on how that goes.

Thanks for the support,
thanks for letting me share today,
Christina