The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I want to share and give thanks for my little miracles this week.
I awoke in alot of pain the other day. Bypassing my urge to just let it go I called my doctor and she was oncall with no appointments, was fit in ... full testing and MRI with 15 minutes notice it normally takes weeks ... perhaps this time we'll find an answer. I felt as if I had a big sign flashed in front of me ... Hey Jen if you take care of yourself by making the phone call, HP will take care of the rest.
I went on my blind date. I did not have a panic attack beforehand. I had a very pleasant afternoon and evening. I got to practice being treated with those little gentleman actions I had forgotten existed .... it only took half the day to appear comfortable with it. I like this person, I talked to a virtual stranger for over 8 hours with no pauses, gaps or uncomfortable moments. And I am not googly eyed ... I will be fine if the "like" is not recipicated. I am grateful my first blind date ever was a very nice day. I am even more grateful I never once had an urge to be anyone but myself, somewhere along this journey I kind of figured out who I am and I don't ever want to lose that again.
Tomorrow I have the day to myself, I can make my home not quit so lived in looking, play with the monster puppy, enjoy a book, paint ... I couldn't wait til morning I think that is why I am here at 5am LOL
Thank you HP, thank you friends and family at MIP, I could not have gotten to this point without you all
Rocky ...Come on over .... do you remember how to do dishes? I sure don't LOL How can one person who cooks more for her dog than herself create this mile high stack of dishes? LOL I wouldn't really make you do dishes and there are plenty of slobbery spoiled monster kisses and playtime to go round
