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I went to a funeral today for a mutual friend who overdosed. I saw the A there. We hugged, etc. Apparently before I got to the funeral he, my A, passed out in the parking lot and they called an ambulance. He was sober. They said his blood pressure was a little high but that he was okay. I must admit that after seeing him I missed him. Even as I sat beside him on the pew and realized that we had uncomfortable silence with nothing truly to say and that while I wanted him to stay sitting there I also wanted him to get up because I wanted him so badly. I still find myself jealous of the girl he is with- she wasn't at the funeral. I miss him. I'm down. I just needed to vent and not call him. Thanks for listening.
I'm sorry seeing him depressed you. I'm sure it would me as well. I'm depressed because my A didn't call me tonight. Actually he tried calling me earlier but I was at work and now I'm home and was expecting he would call me back but he didn't.
I saw my AHsober yesterday. It is difficult. The separation was his choice. The silence is awkward. Small talk is useless to me but that is all he usually wants to do. So I hear you. I set my boundaries before I see him. I usually have a plan of self care. It helps.
That sounds wierd. Generally if you feel unwell you go home. I am sure there is something in it for him to be acting so dramatically. i used to be so jealous of everyone the A put over me.
Personally I go out of my way to avoid any contact with the A. Even one year plus since I last saw him I would not do well with interacting with him. The less I know the better.
