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Oh I been having all of that happen to me of late, I have this great gift of a vivid imagination ya wouldn't belive, most of my past imaginnings have focussed on running away, I have to take some credit though because I have been truly blessed with having some very fascinating outcomes of these imaginnings, I had one where I thought I know, I will pass my motorbike test and ride off into the sunset with my instructor, this was pre alanon, I did pass my test, and I did ride into the sunset and I continue to do so but happily alone, I know I had these thoughts to help me cope with a bad situation and I see now it was an illusion of how I wanted my life to be, and jeez a light bulb moment, all I had to do was let go of the illusion, I can't belive how long it has taken me to see that, all that worry all the effort to try and control the uncontrolable, pheweeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I can still imagine though, I just for some reason thought it would be really nice to ride along the shore line on a horse, and then least week whilst my friend and I were cycling through as country park, we heard the patter of horses hooves, we looked behind to see a horse hurtling towards us, we tried to pedal faster but in the end we just had to jump off our bikes throw ourselves at the hedge row and let the horse gallop by, it came to a stop further down the lane where my friend walked over to take it's reign and say to me, here you are Katy here's that horse you wanted, ya gotta laugh, it reared up and fritt me, see that was my hp saying be careful what you wish for!
Great stories...thanks for sharing. Sometimes it happens almost magically like that. It is sooo important for me to know what I want and to speak it write it be aware of it. For so long I was afraid to WANT because I thought I'd always be let down. Sorta victim mentality at work :) Now, the power of positive thought/intention/prayer/awareness is a huge benefit to me....I have let go a lot of the expecting the outcomes. The picturing what I want is good and usually will bring me more good...even if not exactly as I had intended. It keeps me self aware and self honest.
