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Please, just talk to me, say anything you like, I will listen.
You are my f2f meeting and I need to hear you talking to each other and me...I am in a bad place and I just need to know you are out there.
I know this might sound crazy but crazy is me at this moment in time. Just got back from another trip to the doc's, my knee is torn to shreds and hurts like no word repeatable here.
Ya I am sorry for myself, but I also am in a good enough place to know that some of you are going through far more than me right now and I need to get my head and thoughts into perspective.
Suzannah just having a crazy day.
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Suzannah, I am so sorry that you are having a rough time of it. The only way through such a tunnel of trouble is through,,,straight ahead. I think your first line of defense has to be healing of the physical problems. Being in physical pain just colors and controls every other aspect of your life.
I will continue to say prayers for your healing. I hope that the good people on this site will step forward and write you and hold you up and console you and comfort you. You are not alone.
Concentrate on just getting a little better each day. However small that progress might be, take whatever you can get.
Keep on posting and letting us know how you are and what you need.
I suffer extreme pain and have for over 16 yrs in my shoulder, arm and neck. At this time there isn't much anyone can do as the other meds I am on prohibits them from giving me relief for fear of bleeding.
What I have been doing for me when the pain gets too intense is going to sound extremely simple but the effects are amazing. Even if it buys me a few moments relief the effort is well worth it.
I listen to uplifting music, such as you tube how to have an extraordinary life. I smell the scent of flowers, it's proven that simple act changes the chemistry in our brain to a pleasant thought. I breathe deeply, making a conscious effort to count my breathes of at least 10, this too is a proven mind altering exercise for the positive. I smile when others seem to have lost their smiles, I give them one of mine. I pray for strength and courage never forgetting to recite the things I am grateful for. I remember others can't steal my birthday or my dignity. I cherish my memories of good times. I look forward to the rest of today as I'm still alive. I remember this too shall pass, maybe not at the pace in which I would elect it to but perhaps this is a lesson for me to learn to slow down. Be kind to you, and find something to laugh about...and laugh your head off...it's very healing.
I have been having some pain in or behind my right eye for the past few days....I think it is allergies. I have been putting drops in them and taking some over the counter pain medication for it.
I find however that, the dull pain remains as long as I go seeking it. It is sorta strange. I will get busy doing something that occupies my mind and the pain sorta goes away, then I will remember that it has been there and reach over and experience the eye and sure enought it is still there (the ache).
Anyway, I got a good night of sleep last night and feel a lot clearer headed this morning. I have had a good breakfast of a fruity cereal I like and am sitting here for a few minutes reading the board before I head to work.
The house is quiet except for my clattering keyboard and I can hear at least 4 different kinds of birds singing away outside this morning. The sounds of the city beginning another day are also out there. People driving past my house on their way to work and to take the children to school. Trucks on the main street a few blocks away are delivering their goods.
On the desk in front of me is a picture of my beautiful friend smiling at me (and she really is/was since I took the picture..lol).
It is Tuesday and I am excited! Tuesday is one of my ftf meetings which is this evening. I always look forward to it, as it is always a good meeting and we all go out for dinner and laughs afterwards.
Well, I had better sign off here and get in my car and head out to work myself!
I'm sorry you are in such pain. Knee pain is not fun. You have to remember to give it time to heal. When I am I am the most impatient person in the world. I WANT TO BE BETTER NOW! lol Normally, I can stay the course. Not when I feel awful. Try and take this time as just for you time. Surround yourself with things you love: a warm bed , good reading, hot tea. Recovery from an injury doesn't have to cost a lot of money. Just be patient. Hang in there. Things will get better. Pipers and I are sending you lots of hugs and prayers.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Perspective is an amazing thing..... sometimes we can gain strength from others, from the positives in their lives..... sometimes we can gain strength from others, hearing about the struggles in their lives, and how they are coping....
I was talking to a friend last night, who is an awesome person - mother of four kids, full time teacher, etc., etc... Her youngest is 6, and I knew he had some health issues, but never knew the full extent..... Turns out he's got something called Shone's Syndrome, which he was born with, and it is multiple defects of the heart.... She does not believe that anyone diagnosed with Shone's has ever lived past the age of 16, and her little guy is scheduled for some very risky and invasive heart surgery before Christmas. The courage that this little guy, and his mom, live their every day lives, is really inspiring to me.... Makes me feel almost sheepish about how many precious hours I frittered away, worrying about my A, feeling sorry for myself, etc., etc....
That's the kind of perspective that I needed, to get back on track today.... Hope that helps....
Take care Tom
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"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
So sorry to hear about your knee pain, it's IS awful to be in pain and I know how down it came make you feel. Not sure of your exact injury but if it's soft tissue injury as opposed to a fracture then have you tried RICE?? not the sort you have with curry but
Rest Ice Compression Elevation
This will help if it's swollen.
Remember I told you I was going to a new f2f meeting last Sunday and that I would take you with me in spirit?? Well good job I did as there was only one other person there, so that made 3 of us sort of. It was a good meeting though, plenty of time to share! We studied step one. I needed that as I'm all over the place at the moment and really need to take things slow and steady. I feel quite ill in a dizzy sort of way, obsessing about my bf.
He fractured his knee last week and had a metal plate and bone graft. He's in pain too and cant /wont have strong pain killers as he's 6 months clean. So cue me to get all codependant and into rescue mode. It's really put me back and now he's a bit better I need to turn the attention back to me.
Thank you Suzanna for being there for me, thank you for listening to me.
Your an important member of the family here, you always give lots of support with your posts, and l will pray for you tonight. Take care and Get Well soon.
gosh Suzannah I don't know there are ways to compare pains. Everyone on this board has been through so much. We are here to comfort each other. You are certainly worthy of comfort. Reach out take care of yourself. Allow yourself time to heal. Sometimes we just need to do that. I am often frustrated I am not further along than I am. I take steps.
Thinking of you and hoping you're healing - in spirit and in body. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis 20 years ago, when I was 28. New medications have my disease in remission at the moment, but I clearly remember the unrelenting pain. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
just having a crazy day.
and I can hear at least 4 different kinds of birds singing away outside this morning. The sounds of the city beginning another day are also out there. People driving past my house on their way to work and to take the children to school. Trucks on the main street a few blocks away are delivering their goods.
I am the most impatient person in the world. I WANT TO BE BETTER NOW! lol Normally, I can stay the course. Not when I feel awful. Try and take this time as just for you time. Surround yourself with things you love: a warm bed 
, good reading, hot tea. Recovery from an injury doesn't have to cost a lot of money. Just be patient. Hang in there. Things will get better. Pipers and I are sending you lots of hugs and prayers. 