The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Since A BF moved out I have had more success with my work and better times with my daughters and really enjoyed doing things for me.
I know HP will direct my path. When I find myself obsessing or rolling things around in my head I ask myself if this is how my HP wants me to spend my time and energy. Then I am more able to move on and enjoy my day.
He wants us to see eachother and have sex-just live seperately. I don't want that. It would be the same as before the only difference would be that he gets to go to his small room apartment drink and have his space and distance. I told him I did not want to be physically intimate with anyone again unless I am emotionally intimate with them as well. He asked ME how long that was gonna take? HUH??? I think that would be up to him. Anyway the next person I am physically intimate with will be someone who intends to spend the rest of his life with me and we have a mutual understanding of that.
My A often seems to not hear me when I speak so I don't know how much of what I say he is getting but I"m going to stand by my decision regardless of if he doesn't understand or if he is just playing dumb.
The positive is that he really is seeing how he needs to budget his money etc. so some growth is happening.
It's all up to my HP so it's only my job to do my best to do the next right thing and trust HP for direction. Today and tomorrow that is exactly what I will focus on.
