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Dear all, Went for the interview yesterday, staying in a lovely hotel monday night, thats the good part, the interview was long, strenuous and I did not do great but I did my best, there was a meeting about my other job yesterday and apparently there is a lot to pick through! whatever that means, I have not gone crazy over this, just continued on and will wait to see outcomes, no ones screaming at me for my desk today so whatever, I have a meeting on friday in relation to a wonderful project that I have been helping out on so I am going to suggest that I get some kind of paying role in this, its enjoyable work and I think that this is a good idea. They have suggested payment recently so I think I should follow up on this, as I would have to put a team together for some of the work. I can honestly say I'm all interviewed out and so tired of them, I have two rough ones this summer where they have not gone well, still there you go, get up and dust yourself off for the next day,
Practice makes perfect. I often feel exhausted after an interview. I went on one the other day and wanted to strangle the interviewer at the end. I know that you did the best what more can you ask. You are getting better that is the key.
The other issue is making the best of your current job. I can't tell you how many times I've totally sabataged myself on the job. Yesterday I had a difficult encounter with a co worker who had to "show" me what to do about 2 months into a job. I was sitting there while she was being controlling and perfectionistic and inwardly smiling because I had my feelings right there with me. Before my feelings came up weeks later, years later. What a delicous feeling to have my feelings right now rather than wonder what they were! Of course I did not act out on my feelings either!
I am so proud of you for going so many rounds. You have such significant stress in your life at the moment and are doing so well with dealing with so much!
Good luck with all your projects. I interviewed a month ago. It was a good experience overall. I know now that I have a program I go into these things much more confidently. If I screw up, it is ok. Progress not perfection.
