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hey..just thoughts on my mind like why is my ex girlfriend and her family constantly in my recurring dreams while my present girlfriend..in the same dreams...seems to be going in a different direction...like she leaves and the ex comes into the dreams
anyway..still doing what i think i should be doing..going to meetings...working with my hp...doing some step work and even big book study
reading literature on co dependancy and al anon literature
still haven't found a job...there is one waiting for me at a family business but i continue to bypass that
feeling all right these days...staying under control when it comes to my rage and anger...giving a lot of it away...the resentments...the rage...the confusion and uncertainty..just sending it out to the universe and my hp...let them deal with it cause i have no solutions and really don't have the time and energy for all that mess
keeping clean and sober...going on 97 days..a miracle it hink..longest i have been without a drug or drink in about33 years..yup..a miracle
still dealing with my a who has been on her best behaviour..just trying to be guided by a power greater then myself and ..even with this relationship...just giving away the anger...the strangulation and hostility and resentments
doing what i can with what i got right now and not trying to force anything onto myself or anybody..lettting go of control and manipulation as my life seems to be improving
i would like to thank everyone here for all of there help
What you are going thru is normal and maybe a part of the withdrawals we as friends, family and associates of alcoholics and addicts go thru as we start to move away from the disease. Keep coming back and use "Easy does it" as a guideline slogan along of course with your "Let go and let God".
Great for you for successfully being clean ~ a first in over 3 decades, that's awesome!!!
I used to try to force things all the time and just eneded up sabatoging myself. Putting that behavior to rest has allowed me to truly be calm and centered for the first time in my life. As I keep focusing on myself, I am able to detach from my A's and my codependent ways, each day, even the small steps are still progress.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.