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Off we go again with Tim driving. He started talking himself awake, I begged him to pull overhe refused.
I said I have to go to the br. he says whatever in a very mean way that basically was so what,
He finally stops, I limp into the dark rest room scared and got sick. Not wanting to get back into the van. Thinking I will go from truck to truck at the rest stop to get him a ride. I am not kidding.
sun about to come up. We finally could not take anymore. Got the seats back and thought of zzzzzz's. this stupid car next to us was HONKING and flashing its lights every so often. no one in it. We still felt like we were moving, we gave up, back on the road with him driving? Well with him keeping the van on the road, me hollering TIM!!! constantly to keep him awake,
it was horrible. I was a mess, he refused to let me drive, I was a prisoner. I hated him more than anyone in my lift. I added all this stuff for you mip people as I knew you would understand how horribly scared I was and sick and thinking about homicide. no joke, kept thinking, it is NOt my job to punish him, he will get his.
we made it to Albany where he hopped out saying I am going to bed!!
I drove to see Mac for a sec to cry in his arms and get a big hug. Of course at this point I wanted to kill
I did not tell Mac as he would have killed tim. I mean it. I was shaking and so faint
We have been in contact for forty years, but he is one of those guys that teases ya and ya hate it. And after awhile ya wanna just slug him right in the nose...hahaha After being stuck in the van since 4 pm one day to 7am the next, we will hate each other for awhile..haha
Anyway got my hugs and hugs from mac and off we went to HOME. I backed right to their new area. I got a piece of 3/4 plywood, worked NIcs crate to the back of the van, and carefully slid him out. ug he is not as heavy as Arnold.
Arnold. is very long and very big, muscular, armored. He has GREAT conformation. great. omg what a sweetheart. He immediately decided I was his and blessed with slobbering on my legs and giving me little love bites....
He refused to walk into his area.Now for comfy like a hamster in bedding Nic, So like that song I love, the dumptruck song,"OH the cat and the chidken and dog and the duck and the pig and rooster took a ride in the truck...... So he stopped and he said it is time to unload so he dumped everybody on the side of the road, they were happy as they cried what a happy slip and slide there is nothing like a ride in a dumptruck...(van) I helped dump out our guy very slowly, with much bad language and concern, he popped out like a pea from its shell.
Smiling he waddled into his home, Arnold following with tails going so fast you could barely see them wag! Biting what green they could find, they were soooooo happy.
so here comes Elgin with his head over the fence, the sheep and llama in awe, and guess who? three black sluts sooo happy to see this MAN.
They had made their way over from the back pasture. pushed a gate open. Soooo I did what I planned lined the panels with long pieces of plywood then layed a wood panel over that and another panel over that and wired them all together. I will send pics. so Arnold is contained. the beautiful sluts walked away so sad, that with all that pick me stuff gone to waste.For various reasons my four girls were not spayed. sue, had no idea back then to do that, Bettyjane was almost dead when she came from starvation and is a very very shy girl, PIganose is soooo big and fat there is NO way you can take her anywhere. Pollypoopoo head, again I never thought about it back then.
I always neutered males but did not learn it is better to spay females till much later.
anyway now they are three fences parted again.
got lotsa soft black bowls of water, nic is surveying the new blankets, Arnold has my legs dripping with sweet stinky stud slobber, with a few love bite bruises...Now how do I explain that to my doctor....?
They got their first of many Eden meals of fresh spinach, a cut up apple, warmwater with some grain. I am so pooped.
It is about nine am now. I have been up since one the previous day. In oblivion I empty the van. Tim is NOT a tidy person. to say the least. I piled out everything. took the van to wash it and vacumm. took it back and he said they detail it so not to worry.... Well too late. I just washed it and sucked up hours of fluff, that was everywhere.... until I said, "on no I am going to faint.!!"...true, I held on and breathed and came back.
got into my car, which felt like a peddle car, was so messy and dirty....no ac. BUT my car.
Came home, checked on our boys, arnold had the tarp all wrapped around him, nic in the shade of the house. I put the tarp up for shade, they layed on their outside blankets and finally relaxed. I believe it was arnold who swam in their water bowls so refilled them and thought tomorrow I will bring you your pool. I have two of those sturdy sand pools.
drag in all the stuff leaving a mess of coffee cups. tims mcdonalds bags, tims cig boxes, tims twinkie wraps. tims tims tims a jerk. NOT explainging that. HE got these guys here> I would still be sleeping somewhere trying to get home with my owee body and sore knee.
Suffice it to say, I will NEVER get into a car with him again. lol and he probably will never ask me lol lol We love to hate each other.
anyway the boys all tucked in in the shade, plenty of water and cut up apple, I go stuff my face with soy youghurt climb on my wonderful, soft featherbed. that "somebody" decided to chew up and dump out the Bettas food on....with happy close, Sauvey at my feet, tavish by my head wrapped around me and Bonnie next to me, a few soft cats purring,Tish finally satified with my paying lots of attention to her hellos and hi's...I fell asleep.
woke at ten pm, watching soaps on soapchannel eating popcicles, must have clenched my teeth a lot, ouch. man I need a hot tub. thought about and wrotecha my view of Arnold and Nics great adventure home.how many hours is it from four pm one day to one pm the next? up all that time?
gotta stop my teeth from hurting...everyone is tucked in. Lots to clean up tomorrow. Two boys to evaluate, will treat them with a soy peanut butter sw ivo style. Give them cod liver oil, flax seed oil and rub them down with this great lotion called rely. it is diabetes lotion.
Arnolds eyes are red. I bet they layed in pee and poo. Arnolds leg skin is horrific. I got pics for you. Nic is pink so his skin is very thin and sensitive. Arnolds skin is deep pitted, rough and ugly.
Nic is fat blind. he has a darling squishy face. I cannot wait to get them both comfy and feel better in their own skin.They are only four so they should be fine.
If Nic were older, he would be dead. Arnie would be dead from infection.
those LA shelters need to be shut down. alexis walked into hell for these guys. Thank you Alexis.
The shelter jerk made her pay $50 a pig. the officer/boss told me $25. I told her they messed with the wrong group of wormen. I am going to be getting ahold of this Officer Moser. HE was not there so the other creepy guy took advantage of her, I bet pocketed the money, I will make sure things are made right and she gets her money.
Alexis what do I do with these crates?? Will ya seriously come thru here someday? YOU are always welcome.
I am sure these two will never forget you. You stopped those guys from killing them. I am soooo proud of you for stepping in. Takes a gal with real big OVARIES!!!
She drove alone you all!!
So I had $414. van was $150, paid time almost a hundred after breakfast, lunch, coffee and the arsnic I put into his coffee.... gas was insane. I got into my house payment some. I estimated $480 for gas and van rent.I am too tired to think still and not sure when I can.
I transferred the pay pal money to my account to give Dad back $500. when it is available. Hopefully before friday as he needs it back so he does not have to go into his savings etc.
My second sleep study is this thurday for the cpap thing. then the 30th is the wrist surgery. What a month eh? And now two wonderful new boys. I will move them to my little herd when they are ready. I know they would like to cuddle with the pig pile in winter. I am walling in the pigs stall now. going to hang very safe light bulbs for heat in there for them. Need some new old blankets.
ouch gotta get my mouth to calm down. time to sleep again.
Can you believe it everyone! YOU pulled it off. Two very deserving pigs are home, and they are not leaving Eden I promise. I will keep you updated on their progress.
Fergus says I cannot leave for a long time and his long Basset body is wrapped around my head above me.
g night my two sweet new princes and sending my deepest love for my Dad, don.
hugs to you all, debilyn who feels like someone took a hammer to her teeth, hit her gut, scrambled her head and took her heart and squeezed it. there is NO way I would live with that. no way
You are a star...plain and simple and a big soft hearted star at that.
Laughing at the sleep lab stuff as I did that in my Department at my University. It was part of my degree course.... however I will be holding you in prayer and keeping your surgery in mind too.
I soft tissue, ligaments and muscles are beginning to feel easier, but that might be the Diazapam putting me on a different planet.
Take care and rest as much as you can and look after that knee AND THOSE WRISTS...carrying 150K of pig around is NOT going to help your knees or your wrists, nor indeed any of your joints.
Always, your gracious and caring friend from over the pond.
Suzannah
-- Edited by Suzannah at 13:29, 2008-09-17
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
I feel like that about the ex A. I used to justify how I had to drive with him. Now no matter what I am not dealing with that again.
I believe I have posted about the roommate who used to give me rides to get dog food.Believe me it is easier to go on the bus and deal with that. The thing is I was oblivious to how draining she was. I was always trying to do "right".
When I stopped I had to cut her off because she is a very draining person. The other day she talked to me and I just did not engage.
I just simply do not do those kind of encounters anymore. My health is too fragile. I hope you will find alternative back ups for yourself for future trips.
however I will be holding you in prayer and keeping your surgery in mind too.
