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Well, Lynn, it was you who prompted me to take the bit between my teeth and be brave.
I sent out an email to my church support group telling them just how I am feeling right now particularly and how I am not managing weekends at all and feel isolated blah blah... you know the rest if you read my previous post about hating weekends.
So, I am now awaiting responses.
The Pastoral Assistant called in this morning to bring back some bath mats and towels she had taken away on Thursday and dried for me over the wet weekend, and said that I looked rather down and asked if I had been crying and what was upsetting me?
So, I told her about my weekend feelings, the pain that is getting me down and my daughter situation that keeps on screwing with my thoughts, especially when I am not able to do stuff and distract my thinking. And I told her that I had sent an email around to the support group thanking them for their help and support and letting them know where I was at right now, including my weekend solitary confinement feeling from social isolation when I cannot get out and about or do stuff to distract myself.
She was happy that I had taken the courage to do that and said that she would read it once she had got back from meetings and visits that morning and that she would be down to see me in a couple of days and in the meantime to keep in touch via email if she was not available by phone.
So, there, I have risked sounding like a huge ninny, weepy ol' rubbish loner and asked for help that I find really hard to do.
Will have to just sit back now and wait and see.
Lots of love to all my wonderful family here who constantly let me know that I am worth caring about and accept me just as I am. Up one moment and down in the doldrums the next.
Asking -
God to grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time, (and trying to), enjoying one moment at a time: Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Suzannah
-- Edited by canadianguy at 13:14, 2008-09-15
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Hope by now things have taken a turn for the better. And look at what accomplishments you have done while in the doldroms which is amazing.
"asked for help that I find really hard to do.
Will have to just sit back now and wait and see.
Lots of love to all my wonderful family here who constantly let me know that I am worth caring about and accept me just as I am. Up one moment and down in the doldrums the next."
Asked, wait, gratitude, acceptance and belief that it will get better again. You know the ole slogan It is what it is ......... well, I just realized this can apply to anything like depression, anger, and all of our feelings. It will pass and we see it do that time and again but I struggle to believe any of that when I am in the middle of something. With practice and practice, maybe that will become an automatic habit. That would be nice, eh?
Maybe we could have a doldrom emergency packet figured out to put into action........ yet I know the action is the hardest part especially if one is healing too. Something for me to think about........ Thanks for sharing and hang in there until the sun shines again.
hugs, ddub
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"Choices are the hinges of destiny." Pythagoras You can't change the past, but you can change the future.
Good for you! I'll be awaiting your responses too. Reminds me of a sign I saw posted in an elevator at work today. It said something like, "with God and Faith, at first it is impossible, next it is difficult, and then it is done". The single act of going to church may help you cross off many of the heartaches on your list.
I'm so glad you asked for help.
Blessings, Lou
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Every new day begins with new possibilities. It's up to us to fill it with the things that move us toward progress and peace. ~ Ronald Reagan~
Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
So proud of you! I know how hard it is to reach out for help. I sure hope it works out. If your appeal was anything like your post here, it didn't sound ninnyish at all, but like a strong person temporarily pushed beyond her limits.
Just last night I heard someone share this in a meeting:
They had been trying to sell their house so they could follow their long-time dream. They'd had it listed with a residential broker for 6 months to no avail, then with a commercial broker for 6 months to no avail. Finally they contacted an auctioneer, who said they would take a big financial hit, but the house would sell if they were to auction it off. They arranged to contact the auctioneer to confirm in 2 days.
Then, at a meeting, they put it all out there and asked for help.
Half an hour before time to call the auctioneer back (yes), someone pulled up to the house saying, is your house still for sale? Yes it is, they said. Can I see it? Come back in 20 minutes. I'll be back in an hour. The seller washes the dishes, cleans up a little, asks hp for help. HP says, don't even think about lying about anything when this person comes back to see the house. So, they don't. And the person agrees to buy their house.
After closing, they walk out of the bank and there is the precise vehicle for sale that they have been wanting to buy, which is never available in this part of the country. It's in a configuration that they didn't know existed, which is exactly what they need.
The person I heard credits it all to asking for help. So you see - to me, it's not a bit ninnyish at all. It's a BIG step forward in recovery.
