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Hi all! Well, thanks to my wonderful f2f meeting and the great people here, I feel real good about the choices I am making and feel like I am doing really well so far. The hunting season starts this saturday and I am nervous for sober bf, but it is his path to follow - he has to decide what he can handle with this season and hanging with his friends. So on my Saturdays off, while he is out hunting with his wonderful friends, for the first time in our relationship, I will NOT be sitting home worrying about it! I have already done things too move foward with me and feel better and can't wait to have some fun! I have started going to church and brought my son to the kids church program (which he actually said he wanted to go back next week!), I have also got an invitation from one of the women at my meeting for a movie date on these Saturdays, since she just left her A, so we can hang together sometime. But the thing I am most excited about is a signing up for a dance class. I have always wanted to learn how to dance better and I have found one. It is a little far (45 min drive) but it seems really fun and then they have a party the last sat night of every month! This would be very out of the box for me, as I am shy and going without a dance partner would be a little intimidating. But the instructor said no partner needed, I guess you par up with someone??? So I am really thinking of going ahead with it!! And I may check out some f2f meetings on sat nights too. So I think I am ready. I will try my best to focus on me!
After my last f2f meeting, I did tell my bf (in a very confindent manner) that I would not be sitting around worrying about him anymore. I told him that if he thinks that hanging with these people are in his best interest, that's his call. I told him of my plans to get out and have some fun! I think he was a little surprised of this, since lately I have been worrying alot and I think he expected that I would just sit at home and wait for him. He then told me that he would never put himself in a bad situation and said he wouldn't be staying around if they started drinking. He then said "you watch, Ms Louise - I'll probably be home before you will". We will see. But the last two days, I have not been worrying, very confident and I think it has stunned bf a little. I also started running after work and I asked if he wanted to join me and he said he would (he walks, I jog). I did state that I wanted to try to attend one more meeting a week if I could (to make 3/wk), and bf did offer to watch my son. So everything is ok so far. I hope I can do it!
And, by the way, you can do it! Keep us posted on how the dancing goes.
I know how you feel about letting go of worry about what he does. Believe me, I do. I also know that it is possible to do so. It gets easier and easier. In my situation, the more I let go of worring, the better he gets about taking responsiblity for his choices, and even makes good ones! Never thought that was possible one year ago.
Interesting that you mention dance. I started classes a couple of weeks ago and have found I CAN do it and I Do like it. Although I really have to consentrate- I have limited rythum! lol NO they don't move to fast for me to keep up NO there are not a bunch of sleazy men waiting to pick me up and it is fun. Funny the excuse I found to keep myself from doing things in the past. It's really cool classes are fairly early, there is food there if I want dinner. It's a fun night for me. Good luck with yours, Glad
