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Hello family, As some of you may have read, its been a pretty horrendous week for me. I am finally coming thru the fog, and I am beginning to think, REALLY think about what my options are. I just realized that I do indeed have them. I want this relationship to end. I know that more than I know anything else. I know that I do not deserve to be treated in the manner that I have previously allowed. I know that I am worthwhile and worthy. I know that I am strong, stronger than I usually give myself credit for. I know that I will survive. I have a small amount of money tied up in mutual funds, I know that I can draw on that if I have to, even with the penalties and fees...it is MINE. I can use that to move or stay. I know that I will either find a full time job or be approved for disability....so I will have income soon. I now know that I have true friends who have shown me that *I* matter and that they care for and about me. I have adult children who are willing to do whatever they can to help me, granted they are still children essentially, and I do feel badly for involving them in my personal crises, as I have never involved them in these before. I know I have all of you to lean on, to cry to, to draw strength from...for all of these things, I am truly grateful. I have more than most really. These are things I know, and these are the things I will use to build my bridge to a new, happier and healthier life. seeking peace, jeannie
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if you bring forth what is within you, what is within you will save you
Jeannie, You are so right about all those things. You are so worth it and you have all the strength within you to do anything. Your Higher Power is holding your hand and will carry you if needed. You deserve joy, happiness and peace just as we all do. We are the ones who need to remember that and allow that for ourselves. It's already there in your life waiting for you to have it and you are accepting that fact and giving it to yourself. Your Higher Power is smiling at the way you are viewing your life and He is so happy that today you know you are worth it. Thank you for reminding me that we are worthwhile and to be in gratitude today. Keep building that bridge and don't be afraid to walk on it. You have the tools and you have the support.
I do believe that our higher power gives us what we need, and when we finally surrender, start making decision to better our own lives, then things start falling into place.
My disability hearing is the 16th of this month, and that will be a start to getting myself out of the hole and more financially independent. That is the last hook my parents have in me, and I am working every day in order to toss that hook right back!
It's truly a blessing to know we are not alone!
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"If a dog will not come to you after having looked you in the face, you should go home and examine your conscience." - Woodrow Wilson
