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feeling off..now that the a is gone i am lonely and uncertain
my drug addiction and alcohol use seems to be calling out for me these days..i am 81 days sober and don't want to balk..but things just seem a bit empty and redundent now
not doing the work i could be doing and simply feeling off my game right now
the ghosts of this past relationship seem to haunt me a little..allthough on a grand scale i really do not feel like i did much wrong in the relationship..little bits and pieces but over all i feel i tried my best
missing her a bit..but i think it has more to do with my aloness right now..all though the idea of having a mate..someone to come home to isn't very foriegn to me right now
step work..in many of the programs i am affiliated with might do the trick for me now
just really not certain how to start this next phase of my life
what it will look like and the such
i pray every morning now for hope forgiveness willingness to change and serenity
some of it i get but my life right now seems to be meetings and more meetings and not much else..not a big network of people for me right now and my co dependency issues may be rearing there ugly head right now
just really feel a bit lost..confused and uncertain about myself..my life..my sexuality and a lot of things
gonna hit up a meeting this morning..feeling a bit off and confused
One is the getting in the car and singing! remember! That is one beautiful tool. I know that you have others. These are the things that make you feel good and that get you thru a bit of time until a shift can occur that will take you out of your bad spot.
Go running. Go take a walk. Call a program person and just chat. Explore a new part of town. Go write in your journal at a coffee shop. Just take a break and go change the channel.
When I get these thoughts and feelings that you are describing as 'codependency rearing its ugly head' and that becomes clear to me, I can then start from zero and "plug" into myself.
Focsuing on myself is new, so I forget a lot too. When something happens that makes me feel like I am acting in my old sick ways, I get the opportunity to focus on me and work on the extra attention I am still not used to. I am not so much lonely as just bored! Maybe the 'being out of sorts' feeling is you telling yourself you are ready for change to take place. I drink so much less now then I had in the past. When I was bored, lots of times I would drink to "mess with myself." The less I drink the more time I have. Maybe you are ready to do something different, socially.
Another great thing to do, even when you aren't feeling that strong or good is a gratitude list. It's good excersize to do it when you arent feeling wonderful and it may even turn your mood right around!
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
I have to challenge my offness. I certainly felt off on Friday when I had so many things to do and ran here there and everywhere but I remind myself of my goals and keep at it. I sometimes have to slow down a bit but I really try to keep on track. I was not always like that. Challenging feelings is new to me. My life was once one big "poor me" now it is what can I do to get to a better place. Believe me I want to be in a better place physcially, emotionally and physically so I am doing the footwork.
