I had a great day with my Ah yesterday, he was very upbeat, great mood, very positive actually for the first time about his soon to be jail time(just a matter of time till he turns himself in) and today it is back to Mr. Downer. I have been having a great summer with friends and taking care of myself and my kids, not worrying about what he was out about doing, so it was nice to have a good day with him. Disapointing to me today that he is back to his negativity so I just went upstairs when I got home from work and when I came down he was gone. Funny thing is before alanon I wouldve been calling him, riding in the car to the bar around the corner looking for him and now I'm just glad that he's not here. This is not what I imagined what my marriage would be like. I know that addiction to drugs and alcohol go hand and hand with depression, but I am just so appreciative of life and all it has to offer I don't have the patience anymore for any pity party negative crap. He lives his life and I live mine, its a shame that we can't be happy together.