I have been spending weekends at the beach with friends trying to escape from the rollercoaster life I live with my AH. How more relaxed can you get then looking out at the ocean, listening to the waves, how can you not smile? When I ran my 4 miles in the morning yesterday, I couldn't get rid of my stinkin thinkin for anything. Usually when I run its gives me such peace, but for some reason I couldn't escape the problems and issues in my life as i ran along. As I get home on Monday, reality slaps me in the face, and I eventually feel overwhelmed by everything. Thats why I love going to the beach so much, and now when I'm there i'm letting it get to me too???  I am looking to far ahead, I need to only think of today. Definitely. Because right this minute I am alright. I have to stop worrying about things I have no control over.