The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have been spending weekends at the beach with friends trying to escape from the rollercoaster life I live with my AH. How more relaxed can you get then looking out at the ocean, listening to the waves, how can you not smile? When I ran my 4 miles in the morning yesterday, I couldn't get rid of my stinkin thinkin for anything. Usually when I run its gives me such peace, but for some reason I couldn't escape the problems and issues in my life as i ran along. As I get home on Monday, reality slaps me in the face, and I eventually feel overwhelmed by everything. Thats why I love going to the beach so much, and now when I'm there i'm letting it get to me too??? I am looking to far ahead, I need to only think of today. Definitely. Because right this minute I am alright. I have to stop worrying about things I have no control over.
As you are finding, our problems don't just fade away when we avoid them. I would like to suggest that instead of avoiding that you look for some face2face Al-Anon meetings in your area. When you are ready for help getting your life back they will be a life saver. They are for me. You don't have to do anything, but show up and listen, until you are ready. But you will find caringsupportive people there who understand what you are going through. Please consider it.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
