My AB rand earlier and asked if I would come and pick him up.  I asked him if he had been drinking said he had only had two.  I told him I was not coming to get him.  We are supposed to be having a break and he is supposed to be sorting out his life so we can have a normal relationship.  I have been attending F2f meetings for 9 months think I am slowly starting to come out of denial and live in reality.  He has a long way to go to be the partner I need.  He realises drink causes him probs sometimes but still thinks he can control it.  I was married to a compulsive gambler for 17 years before my AB and he still has not changed.  I find it so hard to get people out my life when I have been so close to them.  But I know this relationship is not good for me.  I am trying to build my self esteem and confidence but sometimes I still get crazy and ring him.  this is so hard but I know I will get there thanks for listening