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Is it normal to hate anyone that even socially drinks. I cant be in a room that drinks even if its socially without getting so mad.
Yesterday we went to my mother in laws and she is a heavy drinker at weekends. Well she just said Im off to the pub now and I started going mad on the inside.
I dont know yesterday every thing seemed to get on top of me. Was in a lot of pain and I wanted some support wich i did get from anyone else but those wonderfull people in the chat room. Yesterday I felt a complete mess. Today things are better.
I have to start by saying that I dont even know what "normal" is, but I do know how you feel. I, too, can't stand to be around anyone anywhere where alcohol is being consumed. I think for me, it brings out all the memories of bad times that alcohol has brought into my life, and knowing how easily people can lose control. I used to have a drink or two here and there, Ive never been much of a drinker, and now I dont drink at all because of all the negative effects it has brought into my life. Im not sure if it's hate or merely disgust, but I know I cant stand to be around it either. Dont know if that helps, but youre not alone.
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Thanks hun It helped to know Im not the only one. I full the same as u juat said. I too dont drink. I cant stand the stuff. Maybe like you all the negative affects have put me off it. Thanks again hon.
I relate to both of you. Because of my Asober's past drinking and everything that went along with it I can not stand alcohol, alcohol commercials, beer signs at gasstations. I also see alcohol where I work which I can not avoid.
My asober changes the channel on tv now when there is an alcohol commercial which is great. Now we both can't stand it.
I'm new to this board, but I know what you mean. My AH's family revolves every occassion around alcohol, they think they are such a close family (yeah close to the bottle). There are alot of young children in the family and it makes me mad because they set a terrible example. I'm in the process of divorcing my husband to get the kids away from being around the constant drinking, but with visitation they'll still be around it with them anyway. I can't get away from it. Is there anyone out there who's had similar problems?
I know that feeling too. I think it is totally understandable. If you were attacked by a shark you would hate the idea of being around sharks, right? I know that sounds kind of rediculous, but after all we have been through, isn't it just as rediculous to think we would have no strong reaction to something that has battered and torn our lives apart, brought loved ones to the brink of death, and shattered our confidence and self worth.
I am glad today things are better for you, Mum. We all have those days. Are you familiar with HALT. Its the acronym for Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. I often stop and ask myself if I feel any of these when I am having one of those days. Any combination of these can really put my emotions on edge.
In recovery,
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"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
YES! I know that feeling too- when alcohol enters the picture I instantly am waiting for the other shoe to drop- the scenes, the yelling, the agitation and verbal abuse which turns uglier and uglier...its like a slippery slope.
And, I hate that it affects me so profoundly. But I have a program, thank god. Just wanted to say that I can relate. I had to sit next to a young military man on the airplane recently and he drank so much (and they kept right on serving him) that I was pretty sure he was going to barf all over me. I felt totally held hostage and my anger just grew and grew. he did not barf on me but the tension was insane. UGH! hate that stuff...hugs, J.
I can't remember who's line I am "borrowing" from this board, but am reminded that "normal" is a setting on a washing machine..... :)
Your "normal" is heavily influenced by the pain and anguish that alcohol, and alcoholism has thrust upon you.... as you get healthier, in your recovery, I would suspect that although you will also have a (healthy) aversion to people who get really drunk, you'll be able to see social drinking and drinkers for what they really are...
I hated everything and everybody with anything to do with booze for awhile.... then I was accepting of them, but I was choosing not to drink anything at all (over 5 years). Today, I have the occasional drink, and don't feel guilty about it.... I think it's all a part of our process, on our time...
Be kind to yourself Tom
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yes, I can identify, it is deplorable and unnatural in my book to just see alcohol before everything else, it has always been put before me in most relationships and its difficult to cope with.
Hey, I know EXACTLY how you feel. Even as a teenager, I would get so angry and disgusted with my friends regarding their social drinking that I drove many of them away. In my later years, I lost two very serious boyfriends becasue of it. I just hate the importance people give to alcohol. It infuriates and disgusts me. I try to avoid bars and parties because I have little patience for the drunk and I get irritated by their behaviours. My alcoholic parent told me there was something wrong with me for being that way. There's nothing wrong with you, trust me! It's only normal to come to despise what has caused you and your family pain.
It's only normal to come to despise what has caused you and your family pain.