Hello Strangers!!
                        <LOL> It has been 6 months since I've been able to log-in to post anything becuz this stupid computer wouldn't let me without "cookies en-
abled"??? Whatever that is! <LOL> But...here it is almost 2:30am and I'm sooo awake and excited to be able to post again! My son must've obviously done something some time earlier last night that's allowing me to be here...because for the past 6 months I have only been able to keep up with everyone by read-
ing the posts. It has been MISERABLE for me to not be able to reply or even update my own situation since my last post January 15, 2008. I actually sat here and read that..lol..and I'm actually laughing at myself now! My "X" AH and I have been divorced now since May 7th, 2008. The last time I spoke to him was the end of June. NOTHING has changed (on his end) what-so-ever in the year and a half I left him! When he calls...he can't call me...to talk to me without being under the influence of alcohol! GRRRRRRRRR!!  Which of course only just confirms to me...that I made the right decision to get out when I did! I can't i-
magine that I could have withstood living with him these past 18 months know-
ing what I know now about the disease. I've not stopped loving him tho...and I've not stopped wishing that it could have been different for us!! I am not, and
have not started dating again yet. For spiritual reasons I plan on only dating a man of the same faith as I am. That was a big problem with my AH and I also. He had no desire for living a life with a little help from above...and I couldn't live without it...and since I have to answer to the "man up there" when it's all said and done on my end...I chose the man whose gonna get me through this life, not the man that was in the process of trying to take my life in more ways than one! <LOL> Not funny really...but you know I'm only trying to gently put it into
words that I think alot people here can relate to...without being mean about it!
So...life is good for the most part...except when I have to drive past places we used to go, or be, when he lived up here where I am now, in my hometown. It still hurts. I was nice to him when he called me...and he's tried calling me twice since the beginning of July and I just ignored the calls. I just sent his cell phone back to him last week that I've had all this time becuz I finally got one...in my own name, and on my own credit! Another milestone I had to get over since I left him. This past month I went and got my Social Security card back in my maiden name...my driver's license...and a whole bunch of other things that I had in my married name...and it's really sinking in how "OVER" it really is now. I tell everyone if I ever get married again shoot me! <LOL> Becuz I married this guy twice and had to do all this twice!! It is so nerve wracking having to explain
and show court documents to people to get back to "ME" again! <LOL> I really do hope someday I get married again...but I think I'll keep my name next time.
<LOL> Anywayzzzzzzzzzz....I need to try to get an hour of sleep before I go to work this morning! I don't know one day to the next if I'll be able to get to reply or post again here, so just know if you don't hear from me I am still here
reading...lol...I have missed this board tremendously! Have a great day ya'll!
Hugs, Korinne