The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
...this can sometimes appear to be very slow or even miniscule until one is further along the journey.
On looking back to last October, when I first came here as Heartbroken and indeed was heartbroken, now I can see my progress.
It is the one step at a time attitude that has brought me thus far; this family's gentle coaxing and the listening that has brought my understanding to completion at every stumbling block along the way.
Physical healing too has truly helped and now that some of my physical pain has been reduced I have found a treasure trove of strength that has made such a difference to me.
Okay, so sometimes I have halted along the way, sometimes I have retreated, and sometimes I have held up my hands and cried, "Stop."
It seems that that does not matter, what really does matter is my decision to carry on by getting up and putting one foot in front of the other and thus moving away from my past and forward into my future.
I am no longer the simpering, sad person who feels she cannot go on, has no future happiness to look forward to. Now I am eager to defeat my demons, walk tall among those who would see my demise, and hold my head up high admitting that life has been a trial at times though it has not beaten me to a whimpering quivering heap of nothing.
Now I know I have courage, now I acknowledge that I needed help and asked for it and it was given; now I even realise that that is not a demoralising thing, rather it is a character forming and enriching experience that has brought me to where I am today.
This programme is hard going at times, however it is not impossible. It takes courage to face it everyday and work at it. The rewards are greater than the efforts though and what'smore when you work it alongside this family it is possible to claw yourself out of the deepest pit of despair for which I am so grateful.
I encourage anyone of you who may be at your wits end not to give up, take one step at a time, breathe in and out and lean on this family for sustainence. You will not be disappointed. Give it time and remember you did not arrive at the place you are at overnight, it took years, your healing will take time too though each stage brings more strength, more courage, more happiness and development of a strong resilient character that enables true happiness.
There are many wonderful people, here, who have helped and continue to help me make progress and they are there to help you too as I am for you too. What one receives in this family is for sharing with all it's members. Love dies when one keeps it to oneselt, love multiplies when it is given out.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
um or one crutch in front of the other!! Hope you are staying ok now.I think you need a home made out of nerf and hard foam.
(o: I loved your post. Inspired me. Just takes the time it does huh? It is so nice to see you doing well.
relate to the tiny things happening then all of a sudden wow ya get that aha moment.whoa I "got" it!!
Like when the A says something insane and ya just let it go by. Just the disease talking.
Glad you are here sharing and responding love! debilyn with her flippers on,wet suit, mask and scuba gear on heading that-------------------------------->that way......(c;
I remember when I first came into program there was a lady in one of my home groups that was there for the first few weeks I was there, then she moved away. About a year and a half later she was in the area visiting and came to a meeting, afterwards she came up to me and commented on how different I was, how much better I was, how much happier I seemed than when she had last seen me.
Progress is slow, and just like trying to watch a blade of grass grow sometimes we can't see it until we look away for a while.
I have certainly seen lots of growth in you my friend, from the way you were when you first started posting on this board.
You are indeed an inspiration. So glad that you keep coming and growing and being a part of our family.
You have blessed me in watching you turn from Heartbroken into Suzannah.
I have watched you put one foot in front of the other, and become stronger with each step. You have inspired me with your wisdom, and moved me to tears with your compassion.
Thank you for being here to share your journey with us. As always you are in my prayers.
With Love,
Claudia
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A person's a person no matter how small --Dr Suess
That is an awesome and encouraging post.... I still remember the overwhelming sense of relief when I walked into my first Al-Anon meeting.... and when I read my first Al-Anon book..... and when I first read my first Al-Anon site.....
It is VERY cool to know that we are not alone in our paths...
Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
So glad you keep coming and sharing and now giving service to others.